Flying Away With The Wounds Of Love

2010-12-31T19:00:00.002+08:00

BYE BYE 2010...
NOW IT'S 2011...

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2010 lasted for 1 year which is equal to 12 months adding up to a 52 weeks converting into 365 days multiplied into 8760 hours changing into 525600 minutes and finally into 31536000 seconds…
It isn’t 2011 until the very last ten seconds, so don’t start counting down until then…
Because I wished to capture the very last moment of 2010 in my precious memory…
2010 marks the perfect 10 of this year and the next whole will be year 2100 or year 2110…
However, when 2011 come it will shows that the perfect 10 have already added a 1 to it adding up to an 11…
And this means that I have will have to add another task up my list and that is to be a better me…
In 2010, many things have happened…
Some was good and definitely there is the bad one too…
I have to thanks a lot of peoples that have induce me the knowledge they have learned…
Be it good or bad, you have my thanks…

To:My Parents,
I have to be very thankful to my parents…
As a pre-matured baby, it wasn’t even easy to bring compare to normal baby…
Born with a not so completed body but with a complete family is what I’m thankful for…
The time, money, effort, cares and concern wasn’t what I could feel when I was that little…
I have to be in and out of the hospital for a long period of time…
And have any one of your been in an incubator before.?.
Well, I have and I even need to be fed with special milk powder which is very costly…
The thing is that I have to gain back the hope my parents have in me…
As I have shattered their hope on twice occasion…
One was the 2004 PSLE (Primary Six Leaving Examination), which I didn’t manage to be in the express stream…
The other was in January 2010 which was “O” level, which I did badly for it…
I shouldn’t have say that I have let them down cause that means that I have fail in bring myself back up…
I will prove myself in the upcoming 2011, cause which parents don’t wished for the best for their children.?.
Thanks to them that I have a blissful life through this 18 years of life and I can only be very thankful…

To:My Brothers (Clive & Desmond),
Thanks to them for tolerating my anger, ignorance and my selfishness…
Although we bicker a lot and quarrel a lot but we still manage to revert back to our normal self…
Thanks to them for always been close after the quarrel…

To:My Nu er/Daughter (Lan xin),
In the year 2010, I’m very blessed to have a daughter…
Hahas, although at first it was a mistake but now we seem close…
Sometimes, I just have the feeling that I’m irritating you…
It just seems that you have a lot of things to do and I just come in at the wrong time…
And you just need to let go of yourself and let the inner you shine, it doesn’t matter if it is something good or bad…
You don’t have to always put up that lovely smile of yours to please others…
Just be yourself…
If you need a listening ear to hear you rant or to vent your anger, I will always be there…
Don’t worry about me spending the money, its okays de...
Thanks to you that this year was as colourful and bright as the rainbow or not even more…

To:Sandra,
Hey, don’t keep saying that when I was young I was always hiding behind your back okays.?.
Because now I’m able to loudly say that I will not be following behind your back already…
It doesn’t matter that how long we have been friend…
I would like to say that you are the one whom will always be my friend forever…

To:Jeslyn,
Actually we have known each other for some time already…
But this year is really the year that I really know you…
At first, your impression to me was the girls that always follow lan xin…
It doesn’t matter where she is, cause you will also be there too…
But now, you are a kind and cheerful niece to me…
One that no matter how many times we tease you, you will still be smiling happily…
Hahas…
Hope you will always smile like that…

To:Eden,
Yo, yo, yo…
You to me are like a little brother to me…
You have been with me for quite a long amount of years piled up already…
And I seriously don’t want you to walk the wrong path…
Cause the path you are walking now is neither good nor bad…
Also I hope you could really consider which path to take then…
Stay healthy always and choose correctly…

To:Yin long & Melissa,
Finally, it’s the both of you…
Your must be wondering why I pair your up and not type as an individual…
Because I must remind myself that your mei ren is me…
Hahas…
To me, your are the real friends that I could really rely on…
The first time I let go of myself was when I met your…
Your could really keep my secrets for me…
And meeting your was like lighting up my life…
Basically, I hope that our friendship lasts and the both of you to be cheesy forever…

To:Kelly,
Gan mei arhz, although we didn’t talk a lot…
But I just have to say I know what you are going through…
Hope you attain the score you want for your O level…
And don’t be like me, continue to work hard then…
Strive hard to earn what you really want…

To:Gwyneth,
Xin hui arhz, although sometime I keep teasing you but all I hope is to know you more…
So hope that I can know you more and speak up to me okays.?.

To:CDBXB (Religious Tuition Class),
Being a tutor for about 8 months or so, I have learned a lot of things…
Thanks to those who give me a chance to experience something new…
I’m thankful for my co-jdys and my bys too…
And special thanks to zz, xtys and jqs…
They are the one who keep pushing me to hold on…
If not, I wouldn’t be even who I’m…

To:Zero + A2 (Yin long, Melissa, Derek, Ivy Koh) + (Li ling, Qing mu),
Well, what should I say about this group then.?.
Your are really a true cliques of mine…
One that I could loudly say that…
Your are the best out of the best…
Knowing your is something very precious to me…
It really seems like a miracle to me…
Thanks to your for creating a year of fun…
Cause I’m not alone anymore…

To:PB1004J (ITE College East [Simei])
PB1004J holds a lot of meaning to me…
Although it wasn’t a choice in my mind to be in…
But somehow or another I have landed and fit in…
It no longer was the path I pave but a path pave for me…
Thanks to your that school life was great full of joy and happiness…

To:Tiggatiggers (Jeremy, Daren, Matthew, Eugene, Anthony),
Musical peoples, we haven’t been meeting for a very very very long time already…
I hope that your are doing great and hope to meet up soon…
Thanks to your that my life was filled with music…

To:5A1’09 (Montfort Secondary School),
Class of titans, hope to gather everyone soon…

Thanks to those mention above, if I miss out you then my bad then…
Sorry…
Year 2010 definitely is something to look back on when years have passed…
As I will remember those that I have to give my thanks to…
Everyone, remember to enjoy the precious memories in 2010 and be ready to welcome 2011…
Have a HAPPY NEW YEAR up ahead…

SARANGHAEYO...

2010-09-01T12:09:00.000+08:00

SPEECHLESS...
HMPH FRIENDS=.?.
Will You Be There For Me.?.

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Could your don't ever treat me as a fool...
cause your will never understand how i feel...
to live with only myself,its really painful...
i don't know how should i express myself but seriously i do take alots of things very seriously...
it's not i'm very sensitive but however i also do note of others too...
i'm not asking much but just at least let me know if i have been bothering your...
don't just keep everything inside...
if i'm a hindrance then i can excuse myself...
it isn't like i can definitely guess what are your thinking...
i know that sometimes i'm kind of rude,childish or even irritating...
but don't just keep it in...
since your said that we are friends,then open up more...
tell me if your have too...
cause...
GOOD FRIENDS DON'T TOLERATE EACH OTHER WHEN EVERYTHING DON'T SEEMS WELL...
if i'm in the wrong,just point out my mistakes...
if there is something i shouldn't have done,stop me...
if i have hurt your through my words or actions,then retaliate...
all in all,just say it out...
hopefully your will understand even just abit,i will be grateful...
even though,i can't express myself but i wish that your could...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Will you only look at the one that waited for so long...
he have waited so long that the clock seems to stop...
it doesn't matter who are you with or what problems you are facing...
he have been standing in the shadow helping and quietly protecting you...
like a star in the darkness,it grows bright...
even it is a star,it is also afraid of the darkness...
so don't keep it in suspend,at least don't just used him for his light...
in this case,the light refer to his attention,care and concern...
even though he might be the perfect substitute but have you every consider what is he thinking or feeling...
it doesn't means that if he is alright and look okays,you should continue with it...
the star that lost it's brightness is ME...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Goodbye...
it is used as word of parting and an initiate of a new beginning...
however how this word is used,depend on each situation...
it doesn't matter if i have to let you go because you have found someone better...
but i guess that i'm not that good for you...
maybe,it isn't me who is the one that says goodbye...
but it's YOU...
shouldn't let you go on the day we meet...
i should have just tell you how i feel...
you ask me how i feel about you.?.
but i didn't answer...
it felt regretful...
at the time,i should have just hold your hand tight and not let you go...
i miss another chance again...
blame it on the prideful self...
i just don't want you to go back...
i have told you once that...
even though you have no one,but there will always be me standing in front of you...
blocking away the pain and making you smiles...
hope you could not say goodbye to me...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

GIRL : Hey BOY,how are you recently.?.
BOY : Ohhh,i'm doing perfectly fine GIRL...
GIRL : That great to hear,cause recently i got attached...
BOY : *Sigh*
BOY : Really.?.thats good...
GIRL : So how about you.?.
BOY : I'm have been interested in a certain GIRL...
GIRL : Who,can tell me.?.
BOY : Erm,her name is Jojo...
GIRL : That quite an interesting name...
BOY : *Walks behind the GIRL*
GIRL : What are you doing.?.
BOY : Nothing...
GIRL : Okoks...
GIRL : *Smile sweetly*...
BOY : "But do you know that you are that GIRL.?."
GIRL : Did you just say something.?.
BOY : Nope,nothing at all...
GIRL : Then shall we go get some ice-cream.?.
BOY : Sure...
GIRL : Yeah...
BOY : "You will never know that Jojo was the GIRL i loved as i will only be looking at your shadow and you will never notice me..."

Jojo love ICE-CREAM...
and i love JOJO...
but who will love ME.?.

Only a FOOL will
LOOK and say
GOODBYE to
JOJO and quietly walk away...

Would i get a FRIEND.?.
or something better like a LISTENING EAR or even a SOULMATE.?.
Maybe even a GIRL.?.

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2008-12-08T16:30:00.000+08:00

29th November - 30th November…

Today is not a good day for me…As there will be a concert today & all my juniors & my best friends will be attending…except me…I can’t believe it…why? Can anyone tell me…?

As I will be flying off tonight…Why? Such thing always crashed on the same day…and both are so difficult for me to choose from…on one end is a trip to overseas…and another is a chance and maybe the only one that is hard to come by to view a concert with this bunch of peoples (teacher, best friends & juniors)…what am I suppose to do…I can’t choose any…I want both…and now it is the time to be greedy…in what ways could I use to attend the concert peacefully & convince my dad that I will be able to reach in time for the flight…

I know your might be thinking that how such situation can stop me…but I really wished to think faster and act fast…or your might be laughing at me now…thinking that why I’m so stupid...Anyway I have to think fast and act immediately or else I might not be able to even attend the concert or board the flight...

Time passes as I’m thinking of a perfect solution to solve everything...tick tock, tick tock, tick tock as time flies by...many solutions are crashing down on my head...should I just go without telling my family about it...? Or should I call my dad and maybe try again...? And many others ... ... ...

In the end, I decided to call and maybe I will be able to persuade him to let me go...after a long session of talking, my dad finally agree to let me go...well at first I asked my brother to help...saying there will be having a party for both of us...but it doesn’t worked that well...anyway I sincerely thank my brother for helping...

After hanging up, I was over the moon...I was dancing & singing at my house...thus I forgot something very important...I haven’t pack my luggage and I still must buy hand phone battery for my dad’s hand phone and I must meet Anthony at 3pm...After packing I quickly dashed into the toilet to take a quick shower...but I still took quite long...haha...I spend like 45 minutes & I’m totally late...I run downstairs and saw 325 leaving, I quickly dash towards the door and board the bus...phew luckily I managed to board it or else I will have to wait for some time for another 325 to arrive...

Upon reaching my destination, I called Anthony and asked him to meet me at Harvey Norman as I will be purchasing some electronic devices...soon we met and we found out that Harvey Norman doesn’t have the items that I wished to purchase...therefore we went out of Hougang mall and went to look around for those items...after asking countless shops, we found the item...Yeah !!! finally, after purchasing it...we head back to my home...as we are heading to the bus-stop, we saw 325 approaching and we won’t make it in time...thus we decide to head towards the next bus-stop...we run and run and we managed to reach the bus-stop before 325...but later I found out that we dashed towards the wrong bus-stop an 325 will be on the second cross section and not the first...then we run again to the next bus-stop...finally we board the bus and heads toward my home...I quickly went up to pack my stuffs as Anthony wait at the void deck...after some time, I came down and we went to board 161...anyway it is a long trip but I’m used to it already...

Bus-stop after bus-stops...at last we reached Causeway point...we decided to try our luck one more time as I haven’t managed to buy the other item...we walked the whole shopping mall and we haven’t even find the item I wanted...then we went to the food court and I ordered a mango smoothies as I’m kind of thirsty...after that we walk to the assigned place to meet and soon we saw Xian da & Han inn...we chatted for a while and we decide to separate as Anthony & me continue to wait for the group to come...and as for Xian da & Han inn, they want to walked around and we decide that when the group have arrived, we will called them...

After much waiting, we went to take a sit outside of the MRT station...we also decided that at 6.10pm (according to my time) if they haven’t reached yet...we will went ahead first...then before 6.10pm strike and when we decide to walk away,anthony's phone rang and it was Ying wei...finally they have arrived...thus we went towards the meeting point and we saw miss mo,yun hong,ying wei,chong en and kang jie...after a few conversation,we went for dinner...upon reaching the food court,it was packed with peoples...lots of peoples...as we have no choice,we decided to split ourselves into 2 groups...Miss mo,xian da,anthony,han inn and me as 1 group...Yun hong,ying wei,chong en and kang jie as another...so all of us had our dinner and we are also expecting jia jun as he also will be joining us...soon he arrived and he went towards the another group...haha...so funny,beside me there is an empty sit but jia jun decide to go squeeze with them in a small table...

After dinner,when we are ready to head to republic polytechnic...we went to the arcade first...when i walked in,i saw chong en versus yun hong on a game (don't know the exact name) ...both of them are quite good...well in the end,i think is yun hong win...then we took the escalator down...then ying wei told us that he told all the rest of the members to gather at Bread talk...7pm is coming and we are still waiting for chuan thom (luckily gabriel is early)...
after spending some time waiting and looking,we finally found chuan thom...

Finally,after gather the whole group and we walked down to Republic polytechnic...it was a long walk of crossing and cutting...at last we reached the culture center...then my eyes caught my friend (Jade),then i told miss mo to go and collect money from her...well as i always said to visit the toilet first wherever you go...we took out our tickets and walked into the hall,it was like so huge and not much peoples have just entered (so we were quite early in a sense)...i walked towards the 3rd row and walked all the way in and took a sit...my view of the stage was quite good...my whole group sit together with me on the same row including miss mo...but jade together with her families and gabriel took the 2nd row...as i walked into the 3rd row,i saw jamey and she shouted and asked me "whats with my hair style"...i was like laughing...

Soon the concert begin and all the audience applause...there are 3 schools participating in this concert...they are from CHIJ St. Joseph's Convent ,CHIJ Our Lady of the Nativity & CHIJ Our Lady of Good Counsel ,and representing this 3 schools there are St. Joseph's Convent Choir,CHIJ Our Lady of the Nativity Choir and Cantilena Girls' Chior of CHIJ Our Lady of Good Counsel...

At the opening song,it was a comined of all 3 chorale...they sang Haida,it is a traditional piece and it totally bring me into the music...next it was a segment on SJC...they performed 8 songs...firstly, it was O Salutaris,Domine Fili Unigenite,Lift Thine Eyes and Psallite...secondly,it was 大海啊，故乡 and 扑蝶...lastly it was Suri Ram and Hela Rotan...

Next up,it is the CHIJ OLN...they sang What Colour is the Music,Ge Xiao Mai,Get on Board and You Raised Me Up...this 4 songs totally calm the whole environment and it brings me to a whole new level as i saw this primary school kids singing so lively and happily...then it is a interval of 20 mins...

After the interval,CHIJ OLGC came on stage and performed 5 songs...this songs are A Dinosaur's Tale,Cantate Domino,Castles,Christmas on a Beach in Malibu and Born to Sing...this few songs really showed me what primary school choir can do...it is amazing...

After CHIJ OLGC exit from the stage,SJC was once again called to the stage and they sang 4 songs from Super Hits 2001...they are Survivor,Never Had A Dream Come True,I'm Real & Java Jive...wow...i was totally stunned at their performance,dance steps and this drama...haha...i always expect such drama...and i totally enjoyed it...

Finally,all 3 schools end the whole concert with the closing theme...If We Hold On Together...i heard from miss mo saying that all CHIJ students confirm will sing this song...in school,camp or any other activities...

Later,i exit from the concert hall and took photos for the whole group...as im not in the pictures,i will not upload it...then later i spend some time with my friends and then took a cab down to Changi Airport at around 10pm plus...i had a good time chatting with the taxi driver...

I reached the Airport at around 10.30pm plus and i called my families to check where are they...luckily i reached there before them...soon after my families arrived and we spend many hours waiting to check in...

Suddenly i received a call and i took out my phone and i saw my phone showing Ying wei's number...then i picked up and the background was rather noisy but i heard Jade's voice...then she wished me Bon Voyage together with Anthony,Ying wei,Chong en,Kang Jie & Gabriel (hope that i don't forget anyone,sorry if i do)...thanks all of your...

Hours passed and i checked in at around 12.30am,as my flight is 2am (i think so)...but after i checked in,they told us that the flight delayed again...it was delayed to 3am and later to 3.30am and to 4am...soon we board the plane and soon after i fall asleep and without knowing it we reached taiwan...

The rest of it,i will blog on another post...so if you want to know what happened next...please stay tuned...bye bye...

2008-12-07T16:22:00.003+08:00

Hello people im back le...
i will be blogging as of now...
anyway held a camp from 20th - 22nd November 2008...
this is the 2nd Choir Camp im participating in the planning...
almost everything is the same...
except this year,there is my friends joining me (as in my year alumni)...
haha...
had so much fun and took lots of photos...
but i will be updating abt the camp later...
cos i also dont know where to start...
so ciao...
cya ltr...

2008-11-28T15:46:00.002+08:00

Sorry Everyone...
i know i have not been blogging for 1 month & 13 days...
in fact my blog is not dead...
actually it is the heart...
but i have decided to be back on track & start blogging...
I'm leaving soon...
i hope that i will forget those unwanted memories...
as i will be flying away...
just let me take a break on everything...
x days have pass me...
i just want to forget the many many things that happened to me...
be it on this or that...
forgive me...
i sincerely plead for forgiven...
SORRY !!!

2008-10-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired...
finally the proposal have been submitted...
the heavy burden can then be put down...
luckily everything is being carried out smoothly...
there wasn't much errors to correct...

was kind of angry with the Ex-cos...
thus upon seeing chong en...
we head for lunch...
and thus i walked away from the meeting...
then i sat at the usual table i usually sit (if i got go there)...
memories flooded my whole brain...
how i hope to return to those times...
but time continue to pass...
it won't slow down for you...
i don't know why...
but in the end...
i still helped...
LOLs...
i have no idea...
why have i done this for...

planning stuffs is definitely fun...
but it is also very stressful...
as you have to take into consideration on all aspects of the matters...

and to all who have gotten your results...
please calm down...
relax if you didn't hit the expected marks...
although it is ok to feel sad...
but you just have to move on...
thus you will be able to gain great results...

and to those who will be having their "O" levels...
i wish your the best...
focus on the paper...

2008-10-15T22:46:00.002+08:00

14th October 2008...
Tuesday...

the 1st day after exams that we have to return to school...
had 3 lessons only...
well i shouldn't talk about it...
felt so tired after such a long break from school...
as exams are over...
I'm going to slack...
but i can't helped but feel stress...
because i still have 'O' levels Maths...
and whats worst is tomorrow is the deadline for the submission for camp proposal...

Argh...!
so less time and yet so many things undone...
well i shan't complain anymore...
time is still running...
thus i will carry on to complete this tasks...
i just hope that all will go well and it will be a total success...
all the best...

2008-10-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

i just found out that today i don't have to go school...
yeah...
but in the end, i still went...
i have already said that i would focus on the camp...
i will put in my best in this camp...
hope that my Ex-cos cooperate with me...
and also give me their best...
had a fun meeting with the Ex-cos peoples...
then we also tour around the whole school...
my legs is aching now...
something happened to yw today...
if your really want to know then ask me...
your can also asked him too...
haha...
blushing...

well peoples says that "a pictures could says a thousand words"...
yes i also agree with it...
it could bring out the deepest memories for someone...
thus it could help you remember that you have a great time at the moment...
it also remind you of the fun you had...
but it could also turn bad...
for this pictures might touch on your weak spots...
it will remind you of the experience that you don not want to remember...

thus it could be on the scale of good and bad...
usually, i don't appear at pictures that often...
but i like to take photos...
it is another way to remind stuffs...
i don't know why either...
maybe it is on another perspective that how i looks on things...

i really got a question here...
should i continue to count...?
OR should i just stop...?
OR what should i even do OR say...?
only one has the answer to it...

2008-10-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

12th Oct...

It's Sun...
it's also the 1st BXB that i don't have to do any revision or study...
well actually it is a good thing, but i don't know why it doesn't brighten up my mood...
what is the root cause of it...?
what is the trigger that affects me...?
i really would like to find the reasons...

as usual a loner like me do lonely stuffs...
my whole head is thinking about the camp...
it will be held at the Nov holiday...
well at the very least...
i can spend my time on the camp till Nov...
thus this helps me to focus on only the camp...
i really don't want to let my concentration float around...

FOCUS totally on it...
wished me luck...
ppls...
hope that i don't be the 1st to break down...

sorry for everything that i have done...
no matter is good or bad...
i don't think it matters anymore...

well for those who still have exams...
wished ur would ace the As your want...
and for those who are getting their results...
don't give up...
if this time, you are unable to perform well...
then try again...
put in your best at the next tests/examinations...
don't give up even you only have the last mins/secs...

well i could only give others this advice...
i couldn't heed it myself...

2008-10-11T23:05:00.002+08:00

Today is Saturday...
i spend most of the week doing camp stuffs...
camp...
camp...
camp...
I'm working very hard already, so what do you still wants...?

I'm sorry,but I'm not pissed off or angry...
i just don't seems to fulfill the target that i want to achieve...
i really want to know what is hindering me...
that it slowing me down...

Have i been to kind...?
that i listen to others easily...?
Have i been listening to my other self...?
he has been more active as the day goes by...
I'm so scare,that one day he will just appear again...
trying very hard to surpass it...

one misunderstanding after another...

i really am so scare about misunderstandings...

as I really hate it when peoples really misunderstand me for what i haven't done or what is not only my decisions...

I'm truly sorry for all this...

but if you want to blame me on something that i have done,then i have nothing to say...

but i really felt that if i don't clear it,it will turned out worst then ones can imagine...

thus i will take my stand and clear everything...

but is forgiveness really enough...

or is it just what i really need...

i don't wished to stay forever in this mist of misunderstandings...

as it will not be cleared...

but if there is one day...

i will tell you the full story...

sorry for only the half version...

and please let me explains myself...

S O R R Y
... ... ... ... ...

i waited for yw for about 2 hours...

as he went to sign for something...

therefore after he complete his tasks...

we head to the food court to discuss about camp stuffs...

but the food court is flooded with peoples...

thus we went to the library...

some more the children's sections...

never mind about that...

we continue what we set out for...

after completing it...

he head home...

while i waited and went to my grandparents home...

then i spend the long night doing camp stuffs again...

2008-10-10T23:55:00.002+08:00

today went out at around 11am...
then met up with Anthony...
after meeting him,we head to causeway point...
spend the whole journey discussing the camp stuffs...
soon we reach causeway point...
and thus we head to the food court as we continue to discuss...
after spending hours on it..
we moved on to create some new activity...
so stressful...

then as time goes by...
Nicholas finally arrived...
then Anthony says he want to eat...
then Nicholas give that looked and asked him...
he still haven't eat...
as we have been their, sitting on the chairs for hours long...
thus i have a small chat with him and also we waited for Anthony to finish eating...
after eating, we head toward the MRT station...
then Anthony went to top-up his bus concession...
after that we continue walking...
we were walking like zombies...
therefore peoples surrounding us,give us the stare...
haha...
then i remind both of them...
and the started to walk properly...

as we continue walking...
they met up and thus i followed along...
then at the MRT station,i took the other line...
and later i went home...

spend the rest of the day...
sleeping...

haizzz...

the sunshine just don't shine in my world...
no matter it is sunny or it is raining...
it is always dark...

I just want to ask...

What are friends ?
What are friends for ?
& What are friends to me ?

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have gone out of place...
五十九天已走出自己的位子，它是否会再走回去呢。。。？？？。。。
Last day of the day off...
7 weeks...
Really seek for forgiven...

2008-10-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

9th Oct 2008...
Firstly, i want to wished Lan xin a very Happy Birthday...
times flies as 2008 is ending soon..。
and soon in a blink of eye...
it will be another round of birthdays...
haha...
therefore hope you will enjoy your birthday...
and i will also wished everyone to spend the day fruitful and with joy...
either you spend it with your families,friends or even your loved ones...

Secondly, i spend the day with camp matters...
don't even know why...?
even though exams are over...
but I'm still as busy as ever...
haizzz...
yes,i would rather spend the day working than walking aimlessly alone...
today is the very first meeting after exams...
although it is only after exams...
i know that your want to relax and enjoy...
sorry guys...
just go ahead and enjoy...
i will thus polish up the rest of it...
actually it is already quite productive at today meeting...

Lastly, felt so tired of everything around of me...
feel like giving up...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been unable to communicate...
五十八天已无法可沟通，很想尽快和它联络。。。
2nd day of day off from school...
6 weeks & 6 days...

2008-10-08T22:46:00.003+08:00

(Including today) For the next 3 days,i had the whole 3 days off...
as 'N' lvls is over...
the examination period is over...
thus it time to take a break and smell the roses...
then i decided to take a walk...
ALONE...(wat a loner im)
becos everything changes as the clock tick away...
the distance seems further than wat it seems...
it is very long and time seems to slow down the motion...
it look lyk it will take a very long time to cover the distance...
the long hrs of time is killing me...
it looks lyk aft exams le,i still quite tense up...
dont noe wats the problems...
still trying to find the reason...
reason for my speech and action...
so afraid tt one day the reason will not appear...
and it will keep me hanging in the air...
then watever dreams and hopes will be put on hold...
i jus hope tt someone could lead me out of it...
dont even noe if this is even possible...
help,help,help...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been covered...
五十七天已被掩盖着，它是否会在被盖住吗。。。？？？。。。
1st day of day off fr 'N' lvls...
6 weeks & 5 days...

in the mids of her recovering...
i still pray for her speedy recovery...
hope tt she isn't too stressed up...
rest well so tt the smile will reappear again...
then it will shine off the beauty in it...
thus brightening up everything...
so smile on...

haizzz...
cnt help but jus hold the tears...
cnt do anything either...
words & thoughts r being broken...
extra miles were also taken...
but it was to no avail...

...

2008-10-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

7th Oct...
Had 3 papers today...
POA P1 & P2...
and A.maths P2...kind of
haizzz...
had high expectations for POA...
but i think it is kind of difficult...
omg i dont think it will reflect the aim i set...
well we have to c again...
as for a.maths...
it is kind of expected tt im not foin to do so well for it...
it is jus a matter of time...
tt i dropped this sub...
im so afraid...
well i will jus c wat to do next lor...
well tts all...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days is high up...
五十六天已高高在上，它是否会再下来吗。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvls is finally over...
hurray...
yesh...
exams r over...
6 weeks & 4 days...

heard tt she is sick...
wished tt she will recover soon...
jus cnt wait to hear fr her again...
and to c the smile to bright up...

...

2008-10-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

6th Oct...
went to sch early in the morning...
but rmb tt...
a.maths only start at 2pm...
haha...the funny thing is tt i saw zhang chuan...
he though tt today is POA exams...
haha...
had a great laugh early in the morning...
then ltr i found out tt i came to early le...
thus i also walked out the sch...
then pass the bus-stop...
saw zhang again...
then bid farewell to him...
and head back home...
hrs flies...
then 2pm is here...
a.maths P1...
haizzz...
a.maths is realli not my cup of tea...
i simply cnt get it right...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days haven't been realize...
五十五天已没人能察觉到，我应该更加留意它。。。
tmr is the last day of 'N' lvls...
6 weeks & 3 days...

2008-10-07T17:45:00.008+08:00

This picture truly shows and describe how i feel...
this heart is broken...
and it is unable to be fixed back anymore...
it isn't possible to be mend back...
even though it is able to be fixed...
it won't be the same as before...
the feeling just got cut off...
as she just turned her back and walked away...
just look at how i felt...
watching her walked away and I'm so useless...
i can't even say a single word or even try to stop her...

What is the point now...?
in whatever things i have done or wished to do are all smashed...
just what you want me to do...
was all the things that i have done are all mistakes...?
it is already to late to salvage the problems...
or is it even possible to salvage anyway...
things have change through every seconds...
time flies as they don't wait for anyone...
the wind keeps blowing at me...
did i even noticed that...?
emotions were changing...
can i even feel that it is breaking...?

The moment have gone...
but i just want to cling onto it...
do i even have the chance...?
the pain I'm feeling...
does anyone understand it...
I'm like being pushed away by an unknown force...
and this force just hold me tight...
every time i struggle...
it just get tighter...
and it don't seems to want me to move on...
it just pinned me down...
i really felt very tired of it...

I just can't find ways to let go...
words are stuck...
it just don't seems to come out...
even though i pretend to move on...
but i just can't forget the feeling...
it is rooted down...
i just can't seems to explain everything...
it is just like it want me to remember everything...
it just can't be express out...
it is so difficult to forget everything...
let alone to walk away...

The shadow just keeps hunting me down...
it keeps dragged me back in the past...
the rain don't seems to stopped...
it just continue to fall onto me...
loneliness is trapping me...
all the hope and dream were all hidden as well...
it is being set away...
the space is all fill up only by you...
and it can't be cleared at all...
is they even a path for me to walked...?
i just can't seems to pick the right paths...
the stars just don't seems to shine in my world...
the sun were also blocked by it...
even though it is out there...
but i just don't seems to find it...

There isn't a one to share this pain...
i need some directions...
it just seems so inconsolable and untouchable...
just hope that someone could be there for me...
don't even know it is real or fake...
was it reality or a fairy tales...
i have already given it my all...
a fragile rose is being stomp on...
the fall just seems so great for me to take...
don't seems to find the right words to say...
or even any action that seems right...
it just seems that every time you leave...
it just kept me waiting...
a sad scene have returned back again...

...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...
...cry...CRY...cry...

6th Sept 2008...

2008-10-06T21:07:00.005+08:00

5th Oct...
wasted an hour and a half...
should have spend the time wisely...
well at BXB today...
spend the time doing useless stuffs...
at lunch time...
something interesting happened...
someone is being chased...
by 2 persons...
haha...
the guy being chased is my brother...
he was chased by 2 girls...
he stamp some colours on them...
then they want to draw his face and hands back...
therefore i though the girls where to get markers...
and i also told my brother how to escape...
well I'm in the middle...
i helped both sides...
but in the end...
the girls failed...
as they were unable catch him...
haha...
try again next sun...

tomorrow they will be a.maths P1...
argh...
don't even know how to handle it...
just wished me all the best...
well i chat with her again...
well that is all for today...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 is inconsolable...
五十四天已不能被安抚，它是否会安静下来呢。。。？？？。。。
’N' lvls...
6 weeks & 2 days...

2008-10-06T20:24:00.004+08:00

4th Oct...
It is Sat...
finally able to break off from the stressful week of exams...
but yet again...
another week of exams is also coming near...
therefore it could be just a break or just a time for you to study...
well it all depend on how you look at it...
thus i look at it as break to study...
haha...
that is how i look at it...
as it is the examination period...
i hope that all are doing well for it...
but the beginning of exams is just only the beginning...
as after that you will get back your results...
then if you do not practice or study enough...
you might not be able to get good marks for your exams...
then the scolding of your parents will scold you...
and if it goes even worst...
you might be grounded or banned...
so study hard and do well for your exams...
ciao...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days is untouchable...
五十三已不能摸到，它是否会再次被触摸到呢。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvls
6 weeks & 1 days...

2008-10-05T00:47:00.003+08:00

3rd Oct...
woah...
must wake up early in the morning and prepare for 2 papers todays...
Maths Paper 2 and Geography...
well went to school as per normal...
but went to school and found out that julio have not arrived yet...
thus i make a call to him...
luckily he is on his way...
and not still at his home...
time flies and soon he arrived...
then it is almost time to assemble and later we head towards the hall for the exams...
Maths was quite ok...
then there is a time interval of about 4hrs and 30 mins...
then we have the final revision on Geography...
but Geography was like oh my god...
argh...!!!...
it was very difficult...
during the paper...
all sorts of geography questions,notes & theory all comes to my head...
at the end of the paper...
Mr pang was already waiting for us...
then all of us was like pouring all the questions and answers...
Mr pang was kind of cornered...
haha...
was totally drained...
had to sleep...
gtg...
bb...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days cannot be sense anymore...
五十二天已不能被感觉到，它是否会再次感觉到自己呢。。。？？？。。。
’N' lvls...
6 weeks...

2008-10-05T00:22:00.002+08:00

2nd Oct...
although i don't have any exams today...
there is a extra lesson on geography...
as tomorrow is 'N' levels geography paper...
we are using whatever time we have left...
to clear all our doubt...
spend 2 hrs ++ at the AV theatre...
but slightly before 9am when i entered the school...
the school councillors "escort" julio & i to the canteen...
they thought that both of us are late...
but actually we don't even have to returned back to school...
haha...
i was laughing as i walked into the school...
i was also thinking from all the way to school...
i was kind of evil...
looking back at it...
sorry...
but had a great day...
it was fun...
learning and revising...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been long forgotten...
五十一已早被忘记了，很希望它能够记得。。。
‘N' lvls is still on...
5 weeks & 6 days...

2008-10-03T23:03:00.002+08:00

1st Oct...
today's marks 2 occasions...
wished all children...
A Happy Children's Day...
& to all malays...
A Happy Hari Raya...
well...
dont hav to report to sch today...
as there r no exams for me...
thus i spend my days studying & sitting infront of my com...
tts how i spend my days...
haizzz...
sian arh...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have cross over...
五十天已过岸，它是否会回岸呢。。。？？？。。。
'N' lvls is going on...
5 weeks & 5 days...

2008-10-02T13:06:00.002+08:00

30th Sept...
no exams today...
therefore i no need to go back to sch...
actually there is poa extra lesson...
but it was cancel...
dont noe y either...
haizzz...
thus i spend the whole long day at home...
kind of bored...
jus hope to end the exams soon...
well tt all...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been changed...
四十九天已被更改，它是否会在改回呢。。。？？？。。。
Ongoing of 'N' lvls...
5 weeks & 4 days...

2008-10-01T23:11:00.005+08:00

29th Sept...
woah...
the long awaited exams is finally back...
well i jus hope to end the exams soon...
had a long & tiring day...
phy,chem & math P1 r sure tiring...
well im gonna go rest already...

tired...

tired...

tired...

slp...

slp...

slp...

those r the words tt r going through my mind...
im realli drained...
...

...

...
now im finally able to put down the heavy burdens for phy,chem & half of maths...
zzz
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been stressed...
四十八天已被压力给压下，它是否会解放自己呢。。。？？？。。。
continue of 'N' lvls...
5 weeks & 3 days...

2008-10-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

28th Sept...
every sun is the same...
bxb...
exams r near the corner...
therefore the activity is being changed...
had half the day spend on studying...
all the subjects jus come to my mind...
eng,chi,math,poa,geo,ss,phy,chem & a.maths...
lot & lots of concepts jus pop out of no where...
tmr will be the continuation of 'N' lvls...
well eng,chi & ss r over...
so i will spend the time on other subjects...
tmr i will be having phy,chem & maths P1...
well wish me all the best...
& also i will want to wished all the very best for the upcoming EOY exams...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been box up...
四十七天已被包起来，它是否在等我把它打开。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvls is tmr...
5 weeks & 2 days...

2008-09-27T23:00:00.002+08:00

Everybody is busy preparing for their respective examinations...
the days gotten a little darker...
and the nights gotten a lots more quiet...
once again...
i didn't managed to go today...
really can't find the correct timing any opportunities to go...
i cant help but feel sad...
sighing over and over again...
I TOTALLY REGRETS IT...
but what can i do...
there is nothing else for me to do...
it just seems I'm so helpless...
who can i push the blame to...???...
no one is able to bear the blame...
because it isn't anyone fault...
well...
then what else could i say...
as the saying goes "whats over is over"...
therefore i wasted another Saturday...
I'm also preparing as Monday will be the continue of 'N' levels...
there will be 3 papers on Monday...
Physics,Chemistry & Maths Paper 1...
if I'm not wrong...
because never go see it...
I'm in the final lap on preparing my exams...
I going to sleep already...
thus everyone...
Good Night...
Xp...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days in regretting...
四十六天已活在后悔当中，它是否会觉醒。。。？？？。。。
Monday is continuation of 'N' levels...
5 weeks & 1 days...

2008-09-27T19:02:00.002+08:00

26th Sept...
it is just another fri...
had then usual lesson...
but those lesson were getting more & more stressful by the day...
as it is getting nearer & nearer to 'N' lvls...
actually it is the continue of the exams...
today is also the start of the other lvls examination...
thus the my hmroom is changed...
also dont know why either...
then...
chi teacher came in...
& passed us 4 booklets...
we all were lyk...
omg chi again...
haha...
during assembly, we had chem...
then aft chem, we spend time on phy...
then came geo...
at the end of geo lesson...
mr pang prayed for us...
thxs mr pang...
he also wished us all the best...
aft recess...
actually is PE...
but mr pang came in...
then all of us...
were lyk haizzz...
no soccer le...
well its examination period mah...
therefore we stayed in the class for the whole period...
but had lots of fun during the period...
aft tt actually had a.maths lesson...
but we agree to cancelled it...
therefore...
we all went home...
but julio & i had a hard time going home...
haha...
LOLs...
we had some classmates...
actually they want to go julio's hse...
& i dont know why im involved too...
but luckily we were free...
then went home...
spend some time playing games with davin,julio & louis...
well tts all for the day...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days are so far away...
四十五天已在很远的地方，他是否会再靠近我。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvls is on Mon...
5 weeks...

2008-09-26T16:09:00.001+08:00

25th Sept...
Thurs...
the very 1st period is Chem...
we were preparing for the exams coming this mon...
then El period...
woah...
had so much fun at this period...
so long & we never had EL period...
then POA...
accounting is wat we do for the entire lesson...
aft recess...
where the lesson is math...
it is the most fun period of maths (up until now)...
we had a lots of fun & i realli means lots...
it was the most enjoyed lesson ever (up until now)...
then a.math lesson was cancelled...
so i went back home at 1.30pm...
quite early le...
so slpy...
ending here...
gtg...
bb...
take care...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have grown weaker...
四十四天已变得很软弱，它是否会再坚强起来。。。？？？。。。
'N' lvls is not far away...
4 weeks & 6 days...

2008-09-26T15:54:00.003+08:00

24th Sept...
it was raining early in the morning...
thus mass workout is cancelled...
then had maths,geo,chem,phy & o.maths...
as per usual...
maths lesson...
was doing of sch paper...
had to complete them fast...
or else i will be lagging behind...
must catch up with the rest...
& geo lesson was tiring...
we were rushing to complete what we can...
as we dont have much time to spend on this topics again...
chem & phy lesson...
i almost fall asleep...
every time like that de...
so sleepy...
the it come to o.maths lesson...
which i was kinda happy at first...
as it is the last lesson of the day...
but then the prelims paper for o.maths is returned back to us...
omg...
the marks were pathetic...
basically i was very shocked at what i have achieve...
haizzz...
dont want to talked about it...
after o.math lesson...
there is an extra lesson for POA...
actually dont even hav the mood to even attend...
but in the end...
i still went for the extra lesson...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have lose its possession...
四十三天已不属于我的了，他是否会再变回我的呢。。。？？？。。。
Counting down to 'N' lvls...
4 weeks & 5 days...

2008-09-24T23:07:00.003+08:00

23rd Sept...
had a very long day...
studying,studying & studying...
POA extra lesson r cancelled...
haizzz...
POA arh...
... ... ...
dont hav much time alreadi...
had only a few days...
to the coming of 'N' lvls...
as i didnt do very well in my prelims...
i mus put in extra efforts to it...
thus i mus strive to achieve the very best...
therefore im also gathering the stuffs i needs for this upoming exam...
im also sure tt others r also preparing well for it...
well i will also wish for all my frens...
ALL THE BEST FOR EOYs EXAM/'N' LVLS/'O' LVLS & OTHER TESTS OR EXAMINATIONS...
thus i will end here...
gtg...
bb...
slp well...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days r closed...
四十二天已被关上，他是否会在开。。。？？？。。。
Days counting back to 'N' lvls...
4 weeks & 4 days...

2008-09-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

some interesting happened today...
mus rmb 22nd Sept (Mon) 2008...
actually thought i was goin to be late for sch...
then i also thinking tt i might not be able to meet julio & thiru...
because both of them stay at this area too...
cool huh...
i have lots of classmates & friends staying very near me...
but i was thinking tt...
if im able to meet both of them...
i will be very lucky...
then suddenly i saw a familiar face...
it is julio...
then i was thinking...
hope for thiru to meet us too...
then as we continue walking...
thiru caught up with us...
then the 3 of us hurried to sch...
haha...
i was lyk...
omg...
it was lyk so late alreadi...
& both of them is walking with me...
LOLS...
i thought tt 7.45am...
is the time for both of them to leave to sch...
well everything jus falls in place...
had a long day in sch studying...
2 hrs of maths went in a blink of eye...
i actually want to clear e.maths P2...
but i didnt managed to...
aft tt...
it is POA...
more accounting...
soon recess was over...
gone through Geo paper...
aft Geo...
had a short period of a.maths...
had a gd chat with mr tan today...
woah...
a.math lesson is the best...
tt the end of sch...
now im gonna end my post...
im so slpy...
zzz...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been looking back...
四十一天已回头看，他是否还会在前进。。。？？？。。。
Preparations for 'N' lvls...
4 weeks & 3 days...

2008-09-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

Woah...
it is alreadi Sun...
the week pass so quickly...
& soon...
it will be exams...
another 2 weeks ++...
& i will be free...
Hurray...
jus need to work hard abit more...
miss the TTS...
but everyone is packed with lots,lots & lots of works...
hope can meet up soon & expand even bigger...
TTS roxs...
had BXB again...
spend time on hmworks...
then felt so tired...
so i took a nap...
all the way to evening...
felt very tired this few weeks...
haizzz...
i goin to slp...
gtg...
bb...
zzz...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have ended...
四十天已结束，我们要等待下一个明天。。。
XP。。。
‘N’ lvl is coming back in 1 week time...
4 weeks & 2 days...

2008-09-21T22:12:00.003+08:00

20th Sept...
jus another sat...
spend my whole day at home...
facing the com...
make me very tired...
heard the news of some changes on some choir stuffs...
some more its isnt the ex-cos who inform me...
it is a normal member...
haizzz...
argh...!!!...
fine...
dont even bother to inform me...
well nvm then...
since its their decision then so be in...
i hav nth else to say alreadi...
lost the words in my speech...
broke the train of thought...
then i jus hope ur the best then...
... ... ... ... ... ... ...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been unclear...
三十九天以便模糊，他是否会变清。。。？？？。。。
1 week + 1 day & down to 'N' lvls...
4 weeks & 1 day...

2008-09-21T00:08:00.004+08:00

19th Sept...
Friday...
hurray...
spend 3 periods of studying in sch...
Phy,Geo & PE...
mr ng was not here...
therefore we do our stuffs at phy lesson...
then for Geo...
we went through other schs exams paper...
quite difficult...
maybe it is because...
i haven't been doing much geo...
then aft recess...
it was PE...
actually today feel lyk playing soccer with my classmates at PE...
but all was sad...
because we didn't hand-in the assignment...
so we went to com lab to work on it...
actually waste tt 1 hr...
haizzz...
nvm...
basically tt the fri i got...
such a long day...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have fall through...
三十八天已倒下，我能把它扶起来吗。。。？？？。。。
'N' lvls is coming back soon...
4 weeks...

2008-09-18T23:29:00.007+08:00

18th Sept
It seems tt the frens around me...
is havin stress on the results they r getting...
as they hav got back some of the results for the 'O' lvls prelims...
talked to Daren,Eugene,Gerard,Mathew & ...
its seems tt they r all quite disappointed on the marks they r achieving now...

haizzz...

In life...
not everything goes the way u wan...
therefore...
sometime even the efforts is there...
it doesn't jus got u the marks u wan...
well im not hinting anything...
actually it is a very funny thing...
the more u wan it...
the more it will not be given to u...
but sometime the opposite dont always appear...
even i dont noe wat to says to u guys...
jus hope tt u will achieve better results in the actual...

SMILE ON ...!!!...

had a long days on maths & a.maths...
tired,tired & tired...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been colour...
三十七天已被粘上颜色，它是否会把颜色掉下。。。？？？。。。
3 weeks & 6 days...finally...finally...finally...yesh...had a chat with her jus now...
hurray...
it slowly improving alreadi...
& soon enough it will be as gd as new...

2008-09-18T23:29:00.004+08:00

This post is dedicate to EUGENE & DAREN...
it seems that both of them are having some problems...
some in common & others... ... ...

- Eugene -

I have read your 18th Sept post already...
i have to say that not all have the same point of view...
peoples sees it as a stepping stone...
while you see it as a obstacle...
I'm not saying that either sides is wrong...
it all depends on how you look on it...
you saw it as a obstacle because your classmates are doing better than you...
and you really wished to score the targeted marks that u have set for your own...
as you didn't really get what you wants for this prelims...
therefore this prove to be a mental-roadblock for you...
while others think as a stepping stone...
as now is the final laps to brush up whatever they are lacking in...
it is also the period for the final revision...

It is also better not to assume the number of hours,enough revision & maybe too much revisions you could have done...
even though the amounts of time you put into for this prelims is uncountable...
but it is always not enough to practice more...
as the saying goes : "Practice make Perfect" ...
therefore what I'm saying is that we mustn't count the revisions we have done...
but to count what topics we have not cover...

The excuses for not doing well is because of the fever is normal...
because at the point of time...
you only thought that the fever cause you to not do well...
but it definitely affects you to put in your very best for the exams...
in a small extents or to a larger extents...
thus you must not let it happened again...
to fall sick during exams...
it is not good as it affects your performance...

Even you didn't sms me...
i will still like to tell you that...
although it is prelims...
but it is a platform to know where you stands...
and thus you will be able to correct your mistakes...
and work hard towards the actual 'O' levels...
if you want peoples to reassure your value & worth...
you mus first assure yourself...
you aren't useless...
and don't because of such obstacles...
you just give up...
it isn't the Eugene i know...
therefore you must learn for the mistakes...
and stand back up...

You think that you are stupid in your class...
then what about the other students...
just continue to work hard...

-Daren -

Hey it seems that you are encountering problems now...
and you are disappointed in the results of the prelims...
but there is no point in looking back at the mistakes...
it will not do you any good...
by learning what have went wrong would be a better way out...
therefore...
stop the disappointment...
and wake up...
for the actual 'O' levels...

Hey your must remember you always have a friend like me to support your...
and do take care...!!!...

*NO OFFENDS TO ALL WHO READ THIS POST...
& ESPECIALLY TO EUGENE & DAREN...

Xp...

2008-09-18T00:28:00.007+08:00

17 sept...
Wed...
had a long days today...
end class at 2.30pm...
actually it is still quite ok...
argh got so many hmwork needs to do...
im doing lots of thinking...
should i dropped or should i continue...
maybe it will be easier for me to drop...
but i realli dont wish to jus give up...
i jus need to give it my best shot...
from the beginning...
im not very gd at it...
but as more practices were carry out...
im kinda getting the hang of it...
therefore...
i need to make the right choice for me...
haizzz...
pls give me some pointers...
anybody or anyone out there...
pls help...
... H ...
... E ...
... L ...
... P ...
... !!! ...
even now...
im doing my hmwork & thinking...
& heres some food for my mid-night snacks...
kinda getting more & more unhealthy...
maybe even gaining weight...

Yum...

the snacks is definitely gd...

now continue on hmworks...

getting late alreadi...

thus i will end here...

bye,bye,bye...

cya soon...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have ended on a note...

三十六天已结束在音调上，是否能重新能把音乐响起。。。？？？。。。

less than 2 weeks & back to ‘N’ lvls...

3 weeks & 5 days...

2008-09-17T00:43:00.003+08:00

16 sept...
had only 4 periods...
Phy,Chem,POA & Chem again...
went hm early...
actually nth for me to say...
therefore i will end my post here...
... THOSE WERE ...
... THE ...
... DAYS ...
read lots of posts abt lots of things...
i jus wanna say tt...
things will also turned out better tmr...
if only u believe in it...
then it will moved towards the way u wanna head to...
therefore one mus not judge on a few criteria...
mus be able to look on things differently...
thus dont conclude anything yet...
its far to early to come to a conclusion...
... MISS ...
... THOSE ...
... DAYS ...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been waiting...
三十五天一再等待，它是否要等到何时。。。？？？。。。
‘N’ lvls coming back soon...
3 weeks & 4 days...

2008-09-16T00:41:00.002+08:00

This post is for 15th sept...
Mon...
had lots of maths period on mon...
very tired...
almost fall aslp in class...
feel so angry & fed-up & watever is surrounding u when u r tired...
tt so how i felt today...
forgive me in watever i hav done wrong today...
my tiredness jus got over me...
well anyway...
i havent been moving much on a.maths...
but definitely i hav improve through all those practices...
i will continue to work hard...

suddenly feel lyk talking abt clover leaf...
fr my pts of view...
it represents many things...
but i will lyk to high-light on everlasting frenship...
it is easy to create & destroyed frenship...
but to mantain it or carry on with it will be the hardest...
therefore u can treat frenship in different ways...
jus hope tt the clover will be able to guide me...
wishes for all the best for everything...

lots of things hav caught my eyes...
therefore i will try & learn watever i can...
firstly, i will work towards the rest of my subs in 'N' lvls...
secondly, i will work towards "O" lvls too...
& lastly, i will hold the meaning of the clover...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days are faraway...
三十四天已在一个很远的地方，我能把它拉进吗。。。？？？。。。
__???__ days & back to 'N' lvls...
3 weeks & 3 days...
finally have some reply...
yesh...
Xp...
smile on...

2008-09-14T22:27:00.004+08:00

Sun...
today will be the last day of the week to prepare for tmr...
for hmwork or any other stuffs...
well had BXB again...
concentrate for abt 45 mins on my work...
& aft tt we will be having some activity...
actually i noe wat there r doing alreadi...
Pandan Waffle...
wow...
seems a very interesting dessert/dish to do...
well we actually get our hands on to doing it...
i did taste the final results...
but i jus dont wanna join into making it...
as i c lots of ppls who wan to try another time...
hahas...
therefore i jus gave up my chances...
so unlike me today...
but here's the recipe for the Pandan Waffle...

Serving : 20
Ingredients :
1. 200ml of water
2. 220g Fine Sugar
3. 400 ml Coconut Milk
4. 1 tablespoon of Pandan Colouring
5. 400g of Flour
6. 6 Eggs
7. 80ml of Oil

Steps :
1 - Dissolve sugar in water
2 - Add in coconut milk,pandan colouring,flour,eggs & oil
3 - Beat till smooth
4 - Add butter onto a lightly-greased,pre-heated waffle marker
5 - Then add in the mixture
6 - Close lid,baked till golden brown
7 - Wait till all the butter are gone
8 - And you will get your waffle
9 - Add your own spread
10 - Enjoy the waffle...Xp...

Above is the recipe provided by the JDYs...
but i edited abit of it...
Below r pics of plain waffle...
done by my bro...Clive...

tts all for today...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have walked out...

三十三天已走过我，它是否会回头看一看。。。？？？。。。

counting down back to 'N' lvls...

3 weeks & 2 days...

2008-09-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

wasted...
actually hav a.maths lesson today...
but received the news ytd saying tt mr tan is not free...
argh...
there goes precious hrs of learning & catching up...
but nvm will continue to work hard & had to grab watever time there is left...
spend most of the time today at eating...
took in lots of foods today...
hahas...
well nth for me to say alreadi...
therefore i will lyk to end my posts here...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been taken down...
三十二天已被照相机拍下，照片能否告诉我现在是什么时间吗。。。？？？。。。
counting back to 'N' lvls
3 weeks & 1 days...
haizzz...
this time i hav realli gone too far...
it dont seems so well...
jus hope to turn back the time...
haha...
it seems tt it cnt be done...
... ... ... ...
LOL...

2008-09-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

12 sept 2008...
fri...
the day where u get 2 & 1/2 days free fr sch life...
it is also a day tt u mus prepared for the coming mon...
but its also a day where u also get to rushed all ur undone hmwork...
so fr different pts of view...
u view at things at it differently...
therefore it all depend on how u looks at things...
it can range fr the worst to the best...
or it rarely be at the center...
had 1/2 hr of phy...
& had to rush to the hall for 'O' lvl prelims maths paper 2...
omg...
gosh had another tiring day of o.maths...
argh...!!!...
very draining to my brain...
aft the exams...
it was time to go home...
yesh...
fri is the best...
had a game with daren today...
table tennis...
wohoo...
break the TTS - table tennis record...
6 sets...
i finally win 6 sets...
last time is 5 & now 6...
hurray...
but i will continue to work hard in earning more sets...
had a tiring day combining both studies & sport...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have not been noted...
三十一天没被发现，我是否没看见它。。。？？？。。。
weeks to resuming back to 'N' lvl...
3 weeks...

2008-09-11T23:33:00.002+08:00

today has been a very crazy day for me...
spend 1/2 hr in class & off to 'O' lvl prelims...
aft tt had recess...
woah...
ate at the canteen again...
tt means another blue moon is up...
but the more i eat at the stall...
the more i dont feel so right...
well basically im able to sense in out...
hav to look into this matters...
recess was soon over...
& maths period was up...
at maths period...
i totally lose my cool...
feel very bad for wat i hav done...
i was stuck in the middle lyk a sandwich...
ouch...
then i give a loud shout & i smash my pen on the table...
my $3 jus gone lyk this...
some more it is a new pen tt i brought for my exams...
aft wat i hav done...
everyone was very stunned...
& soon the crowd disperse...
then my fren pick up my pen for me...
& asked me how i managed to break the pen fr inside...
well basically i also dont noe...
but i came home & ask my bro...
& he told me it was "qi gong"...
haha...
up next it was a.maths...
argh...
1st - 'O' lvl Maths Prelims...
2nd - Maths...
3rd - A.maths...
omg...
all 3 maths today...
mus complete the tasks or worksheets given...
for maths...
& o.maths...
& a.maths...
i dont think i have ever done so many a.maths worksheets...
& some more today had 'O' lvl maths prelims...
so tired...
tmr will continue paper 2...
haizzz...
need all the brain power tmr...
need to go recharge...
bye...
bye...
bye...
zzz...slp...zzz
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have slide pass me...
三十天已滑过我，我能把它紧紧握住吗。。。？？？。。。
countdown to resuming of ‘N’ lvl...
2 weeks & 6 days...
someone hav asked me...a certain qns...& all i can ans is...i dont noe where to start...
well...sorri...i jus dont noe how to stop the tense & hated feeling environment...cnt break out of it...im not angry of the hatred...pls stopped...i cnt noe how long more i can hold...i might jus snap & im gone...& u will not c the side tt i hav long wanted to hold on...haizzz...

2008-09-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

once in the blue moon...
i ate at canteen today...
haha...
today had a few lessons...
but before the last second lesson...
it was terrible...
omg...
cnt ur jus walked in properly...???...
mus ur rushed in...???...
no offends to all...
well...
actually i wanna scold smth...
but haizzz...
forget abt it...
dont think it will helped anyway...
injure my hand ytd...
& today got injure again...
tmr there is 'O' lvl maths...
hope i can write fast...
now im still doing A.maths...
argh...!!!...
lots of qns dont understand...
tmr mus ask mr tan...
ok lar...
mus slp alreadi...
bye bye...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days r being locked...
二十九天已被锁起来，我能把它解放吗。。。？？？。。。
only left 2 weeks ++ back to resuming 'N' lvl...
2 weeks & 5 days...

2008-09-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

today end lesson at 1.30pm...
wow...!!!...
so early...
it has been awhile since so early dismissed except for fri...
spend the time viewing over 60 over chpts of manga...
will spend tmr time in doing homework...
well tts how i balance my daily life...
woah...
choir had finally make it stand...
so cool...
continue to work hard & congrats...
hope ur will do ur very best in everything tt comes ur way...
haizzz...
today we also received the class photos...
argh...
i didn't buy...
omg it looks so nice...
the design is so different fr last year...
well actually borrow it fr my fren...
but it turns out tt its too glossy...
so shiny...
... ... ...
time to go slp le...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been click away...
二十八天已被按下，我该把它按回来吗。。。？？？。。。
abt 2 weeks ++ & back to 'N' lvl...
2 weeks & 4 days...

2008-09-08T22:21:00.002+08:00

ytd was the end of the sweet sept holiday...
today marks the start of the Term 4...
holidays r over & its time we gear up & sprint towards the final goals...
had a change in time-table this term...
as 'N' lvl eng,chi & ss was over...
it was all replace by other subs...
[Mon]
9.00am-11.00am
Maths
11.00am-12.00pm
POA
12.oopm-12.30pm
Recess
12.30pm-1.30pm
Geo
1.30pm-2.30pm
A.maths
[Tue]
9.00am-10.00am
Phy
10.00am-11.00am
Chem
11.00am-12.00pm
POA
12.oopm-12.30pm
Recess
12.30pm-1.30pm
Assembly
[Wed]
9.00am-10.00am
Maths
10.00am-11.00am
Geo
11.00am-12.00pm
Chem
12.oopm-12.30pm
Recess
12.30pm-1.30pm
Phy
1.30pm-2.30pm
O.maths
[Thur]
9.00am-10.00am
Chem
10.00am-11.00am
EL
11.00am-12.00pm
POA
12.oopm-12.30pm
Recess
12.30pm-1.30pm
Maths
1.30pm-3.30pm
A.maths
[Fri]
9.30am-10.30am
Phy
10.30am-11.30am
Geo
11.30am-12.00pm
Recess
12.00pm-1.00pm
PE
* Above is the new time-table...
omg it gonna be another intensive 3 weeks again...
choing arh...
mus do our very best...
today had a very interesting chi period...
cos we watched CJ7...
& it totally make my class laugh...
be it the joke fr the movie or our own joke...
haha...
had a very gd laughing session...
had 2 & 1/2 hrs of A.maths...
omg...
i so,soo,sooo tired...
i think im gonna knock out soon...
gdbye...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been cut through...
二十七天已被切断，我是否该把它逢回。。。？？？。。。
abt 3 weeks on resuming for 'N' lvl...
2 weeks & 3 days...

2008-09-07T22:22:00.003+08:00

ytd at 11.30pm...
actually wanna go slp alreadi...
but i saw my mum watching the tv...
therefore i join in...
well tt movie was very touching...
realli hold back my tears...
cnt hold it much longer...
& it kept me thinking...
lots of qns keep popping into my head...
& this qns dont seems to have an ans to it...
well then it also seems tt it alreadi have the ans...
so confusing...
dont even noe wat should i choose...
should i continue to purse on or should i jus give up...???...
will it benefit us or bring harm to us...???...
anyway tt movie end at 12.30am...
but i slept at 12.50pm...
i think it realli bring me into thinking of...
wat i should do...
OR wat i should hav done...
OR wat i shouldn't hav done...
realli dont noe where should i gonna start again...
haizzz...
today got BXB...
almost fall aslp during the session...
becos im reading my geo textbk...
& im realli very tired...
wow...
amazing...
i helped my mum at the kitchen preparing lunch...
omg...
its seems tt sometime i can be of some help too...
haha...
but i was quite angry at lunch time...
ARGH...!!!...
not in a very gd mood now & now who wanna get a piece of me...
actually no offends to anyone...
but had a quarrel with my bro...
fierce i would say...
everytime we quarrel it will be very intense...
but the funny thing is tt we can quarrel at the min...
& hav fun at the next mins...
haha...
wat a fun thing to played with...
i think it is becos we noes how to stopped ourselves...
noe how to control & not bring it to a whole new lvl...
woah...
had a very fun gaming aftnoon with my fren...
Eden...
played PSP again finally & com together...
anyway all gd thing mus come to an end...
& the time comes when he hav to report back home...
i bid him gdbye & he left...
then spend the rest of the day sitting infront of my com...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been torn apart...
二十六天已被斯掉，我该把它拼回去吗。。。？？？。。。
Am i realli tt ... ... ... ... ?
Am i realli tt ... ... ... ... ?
Am i realli tt ... ... ... ... ?
Am i realli tt ... ... ... ... ?
Am i realli tt ... ... ... ... ?
Am i realli tt... ... ... ... ?
questioning myself...
which option is better...???...
(i) Stayed On...
OR (ii) Give Up...
Hav i realli lose the whole game...???...
OR maybe im jus not playing it well...
OR maybe u jus wanna fool me...
OR maybe we should jus give up...
'N' lvl will resume soon...
2 weeks & 2 days...

2008-09-06T22:47:00.003+08:00

today is jus another sat...
stay at home for the whole day...
but luckily dav come over to pass me songs...
at first he say he want songs...
but at the end he telled me tt...
so many songs also cnt & will never listen finish...
therefore he never took any...
but i took all the songs he have...
woah...
lots of it...
well thxs him again...
thxs for the songs...
haizzz...
im all gear up alreadi...
actually planned to go out today...
but dont wished to talk abt it...
sadded...
the sudden change of plans...
y mus it happened now...
no offends to all or anyone...
X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ...
X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ...
X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ... X( ...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have been thrown away into the bin...
二十五天已被丢进垃圾桶，我该把它拿回吗。。。？？？。。。
'N' lvl is being put on hold...will resume soon...
2 weeks & 1 day...

2008-09-05T23:18:00.002+08:00

Yesh...
today can take a break fr exams stress...
as there r no paper today...
im able to stay at home & slack abit...
haha...
actually it isn't the time for me to slack...
as there r still lots of papers to go...
but one mus rmb to stop & smell the roses...
as in not to over load urself or stress to much on urself...
therefore i have my own ways of smelling the roses...
woah...
a whole long list on ways...
i shall not list it out...
haha...
well actually tmr i plan to go out...
but i think cancel alreadi...
haizzz...
sian...
*-)->:D->:)->:(->:'(->-)...
... ... ... ...
... ... ... ...
... ... ... ...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days hav bid farewell...
二十四天已向我们道别，我们能在见面吗。。。？？？。。。
break,slack,rest & slp...
'N' lvl exams will resume ltr...
2 weeks...

2008-09-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

Hurray...
'N' lvl is 2 & 1/2 subs over...
but this sept is kinda burnt...
well
but the feeling for taking National exams is great...
it is difinitely different...
it isn't the same as the normal exams...
therfore evryone became abit more serious abt it...
but for the past 2 days & today...
had Chinese,English & Social Studies...
today was the most important paper...
Eng...
quite scary...
hooray...
tmr can wake up ltr...
no need so early wake up...
& rushed to sch for exams...
need more slps...
so tired...
this whole holiday has been a total drainage to me...
mus recharge & recover fast...
therefore i will go slp...
gtg...
bb...
...zzz...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have shine lyk a rainbow...
二十三天照向我们相美丽的彩虹。。。它会继续照在我们吗。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvl will carry on 29 sept - if im not wrong...
1 week & 6 days...

2008-09-03T22:59:00.002+08:00

woah...
social studies is finally over...
but dont even noe how i fare...
jus now tt watever i study it didn't come out...
omg...
dont believe my eyes either...
once i look at paper & i was lyk die alreadi...
but i did try the qns...
& i hope tt my ans will not fail me...
i mus hav trust in it...
haizzz...
still quite worry abt it...
but wats over is over...
therefore i will not probe abt it...
i will look forward then...
tmr will be filled with fun...
wooo...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days r being filled with fury & anger...
二十二天在生气着，我能把这火灭掉吗。。。？？？。。。
‘N’ lvl - 1 more paper in the sept holiday...
1 week & 5 days...

2008-09-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

omg...
i dont believe it...
im actually studying...
ss...
haizzz...
wat a rare sight...
for me to study...
cool right...???...
dont hav time to chat...
mus continue...
chat another time...
gtg...
bb...
all the best to 'N' lvl...
2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days r been written in my notebk...
二十一天已写在我的笔记里，我能再度写吗。。。？？？。。。
‘N' lvl is ongoing...
it has been 1 week & 4 days...

2008-09-02T17:35:00.002+08:00

today had 'N' lvl chinese...

waaa...

the paper was quite ok...

it isn't so difficult...

as we had quite a number of practices alreadi...

so if wasn't tt bad...

managed to complete both papers...

tts smth u mus do...

or else u wont be able to grade urself with the marks...

phew...

luckily i got complete it...

well i mus says tt...

my teacher is still preparing us even at the last mins...

took notes fr mr ong...

thxs u...

ur notes will definitely helps us alot...

i also took a copy for julio too...

becos he dont have to attend sch today...

as he take basic chinese...

so gd...

can wake up later...

& the best is can revise for Social Studies...

as ss is half the marks for my combined hum...

i will put in my very best too...

as for geo...

i will not fail those who have given me their expectations...

thus i will give everything i got for combined hum...

aft this week...

the load for 'N' lvl will be half gone...

then we will focus on the other half...

time is running out...

we realli need to do our best...

even thought sept holiday is burnt...

but we all r enjoying it through exam mode...

haha...

well time to go study for ss...

gtg...

bb...

2008-09-01T22:45:00.006+08:00

well things might be gone but there is also hope for tmr...therefore we mus not look backward...although it is ok to recollect & learn from the back...but it is also important to look forward...to think positively & get some energy for the things tt r waiting for u tmr...well tts wat im gonna to do...im getting the slp i needed for my major exams tmr...'N' lvl...have alreadi stock up the stationery for it...

pens,

pencils,

ruler,

eraser,

correction tape,

mathematical set & calculator...

quite gear up...tmr is Chinese paper...

i have received quite a few wishes...thxs to all of u...wish ur all the best too...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have been key in...二十天已被输入，我能把它取回吗。。。？？？。。。

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tmr is 'N' lvl...wish me luck & all the best...

1 week & 3 days of not hearing ur voice...realli hope to hear it soon...

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☆ This song is by : Lin Jun Jie (林俊杰) - 忘记

感觉梦醒着

感觉心痛着

感觉你不在了

谁来证明爱是存在的

我们被困着

被过去骗着

这一切都不一样

世界怎么了

难道说选择了忘记

而解放了自己

是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气

当时光交成在一起成

说不清的思绪

我却只要那段最美的回忆

哦。

memory 飘荡如空气

明知你在那里

却又难以跨越的距离

我们在放弃

涂白了记忆

以为就可以伪装无邪的美丽

难道说选择了忘记

而解放了自己

是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气

当时光交成在一起成说不清的思绪

我却只要那段最美的回忆

哦。

难道说选择了忘记

而解放了自己

是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气

当时光交成在一起成

说不清的思绪

我却只要那段最美的回忆

我却只要那段

最美的回忆....

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i would lyk to dedicate this song to her...pls read the lyrics...got meaning...it realli express how i feel...

2008-09-01T20:26:00.003+08:00

Omg i jus read some one's blog...i found out smth tt dont seems so gd & right...terrible i would say...things r taking a very great turn & it is turning fr bad to worse...mus find out who the person doing it...& im gonna get him/her real hard...

this is getting worse...& who is the one tt mess it even further...cnt believe it...y is everyone looking at only half the part of the story only...& it is the whole wrong side to look at...it is totally bad...realli hope tt i was there to clear the misunderstanding...ARGH...!!!...wat happened...???...can someone fill me in & tell me everything...everything is out alreadi...& it will smog even further...as im uninvited...i couldn't be there to clear it...im now very pissed off...y mus the word be mention again & again...mus everyone blamed one another...???...it isn't wat ur see or heard...mus hear the whole story fr someone tt hav witness both sides story & someone who is in it & knows the details of it...

pls stopped the quarrel...i will try to get to the bottom of this...& thus i would lyk to defend everyone tt is involved in this...cnt stand it...y mus some one let off the bad news...no offends to all...im not particular pointing to anyone...& dont blamed anyone or urself for everything...i would says tt blaming one another will not clear everything & it will still continue to be a misunderstanding...gosh...dont think tt everything is started by one person...well it always take two hands to clap...therefore a coin have both sides...the truth & the untruth...& it will have a rare sight where it landed at the center...& pls looks at things differently & at different angles...dont look at it with a pair of biased eyes...& dont let others bluff u with others point of view...even ur closes fren might or may betrayed u...well it seems tt everyone cnt be trusted...therefore one mus choose the right choices...he/she have to choose the right decisions & not the wrong choice...as the right choice will seems bad at first...but soon u will c the different...tt u misunderstand he/she...& the wrong decisions will seems the best way out at first...but in the long run...it will ended up as a regrets & a wrong decision which u shouldn't have make...

jus hope tt all will calm down & relax...well it might seems wat i say is totally rubbish or wat u might think is wrong...but i will clear the doubt...& again...i have no offences again to anyone or everyone...

2008-09-01T18:21:00.007+08:00

today i shall used mostly chinese to blog...

i really feel very tired...i don't know how long more can i still hold on...just feel so stress & up sad...things are not seems the way it is now...the matters are still & it is not moving at all...how would you want me to approach this problems...i don't even know where to start or what should i say or do...

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我现在真的很烦。。。

我不知道该怎么把这问题给解决。。。

我真的不应该让事情恶化，现在如果要把事情解决会根难了。。。

往往事情发生后，才来解决是能办到的。。。

但是我真的不知道我该说什么或做什么。。。

真狼狈。。。

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我懂我一再又一再得再犯错。。。

而你也一再又一再的原谅我。。。

真后悔。。。

但是我真的是想悔改的。。。

可是我能吗。。。？。。。

我都对我自己没那么多的信心去面对。。。

而我也没有那么多的勇气。。。

但事情终是要解决。。。

而我现在正在思考。。。

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我该向那个方向去解决。。。

我认为这次我真的做错了。。。

我不求多。。。

我只愿对方能原谅我。。。

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2008-08-31T23:18:00.023+08:00

well sorri to jamey for not replying ur sms...becos i have to wake up early today...therefore i was kinda tired...so slept quite early...

wake up at 4.40am today...so early...i think it is the earliest i ever woke up in such a long time...except from my camps...took some time to prepare & aft tt we head towards Malaysia...becos my father have set-up a prayer hall at Labis...i dont even noe where it is...but to my amazement the house was huge...looks almost lyk a bungalow...we have book a mini-van to fetch us to there & back home & thus we sat at the mini-van for hrs before reaching the destination & also took the van home too...spend lyk 5 hrs + in tt the mini-van...aft we board the mini-van we went to fetch my grandparents & together we head inside Malaysia...

luckily we went in early & thus the trip in was quite smooth...but it was very early...felt so tired...heard almost all the songs in my hp...the custom was very quiet at the time...pass both customs in no time & soon we continue to rushed to our destination...at a stop where we had a break...i saw this bunch of blue & yet purple flowers...it was so beautiful...but i didn't managed to take a pic on it...wat a pity...ARGH...!!!...

reached the place at around 8am ++...& we were treated as VIP...omg...cnt believe it...jus dont even noe wat to do...breakfast & lunch were cooked for us...ltr together with my bro we explore the whole hse...on the 1st floor it was equip with a front garden & a backyard where u could BBQ on...a huge living hall & a spacious kitchen with a bedroom...on the 2nd floor...there was a bedroom & a big hall where it combined 2 bedroom together where my bro says he wanted it very much & it also come with a big bedroom with a small hallway...& 2 toilets too..basically the hse is BIG...Breakfast was filling...so many foods on the table...

Below r a few pics on the food for breakfast...

(Above) The famous Fu Zhou Mian tt i have tasted...cool & tt was jus a part of the breakfast menu...
(Above) The spread of foods on the table...There is some pastries,noodle & rices...
(Above) & this is with the beautiful flower...

(Above) & another...

sat at a corner for quite some time...hrs i would say...played all the game & heard all the songs in my hp...& again we were served lunch & lunch was even better...c below for the pics on the food...yuppy lunch was so delicious...

(Above) & (Below) Here r the spread of food again

& i thought tt was all but ltr another dish came in & it was the soup...the table nearly had not enough space to put all the dishes...wow...!!!...such a wide spread...omg cnt resist the temptations to finish it all...

(Above) & (Below) Here r the addition of the soup...

(Below 3 pics) This is the best...the coconut drink was taken from fresh coconut...omg it tastes quite funny at first...but it was nice...

(Above) & this is the beautiful cup tt contains the coconut drink...so nice...wished i have took one home...

Credits to my bro (Clive) for taking the photos below...one only...

(Above) well managed to took a pic with my bro...so nice...actually we were playing at first but it ended to be quite a gd pic anyway...

ltr bid farewell to the ppls there at 3pm ++ & we head back to Singapore...well it is quite a pity we didn't get to noe new frens from there...haizzz...anyway reached home at 7pm ++ & felt quite tired...well i have to say the driver tt drove the mini-van is so cool...he cuts many lanes & bring us home at the fastest speed he can go...aft taking our dinner...we rushed out again to another prayer hall in Singapore...woah...jus reached home...but today had lots of fun...as there was lots of performances...& below the 2 pics is a candle being lighted up...

It was a beautiful scene when it is being lighted up in the dark...well tts all for the day...

gtg...

bye bye...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days is being kept as a memories...十九天已被收在我记忆里，我能把它恢复吗。。。？？？。。。

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3 days to 'N' lvl...

1 week & 2 days have pass by...

haizzz...

2008-08-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

well basically nth happened today & i slack for the whole day at home...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days have gone away & it will not stayed for me...十八天已走了，它不会为我而留下。。。

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4 days to ‘N’ lvl...

A week & 1 day...

2008-08-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

celebrated teachers' day...had a concert at the sch hall...before the concert...the 4N's students were invited to the stage...class by class...& together with the Principal (P) ,Vice-principals (VPs) ,Heads of Departments (HODs) ,Form teachers & subjects teachers...they presented a collar pin to all the students...feel so honoured...especially the one who pinned for me is my form teacher...Mr Chia... & thus i hav also received a collar pin too...the collar pin is an encouragment & supports for us...aft tt the concert continues...

soon aft the concert...we went back to our homeroom & ltr we were dismiss & i went over to my jr sch with my frens...& soon i met up with my teacher & had a long chat with Mr Henry Lee...my pri 5 & 6 form teacher...although the session was long but it was totally worthwhile...sat at the canteen for quite a while...aft tt i went off to hav my lunch with Guo kai...ltr met Stanley & he also join us...aft lunch we bid farewell & we leave & i head back home...

well i have to say...i realli want to meet up with the whole 6E'04...i dont hav much infos on most of them...& it is kinda sad to hear tt...but i hope i will be able to still contact some of them...realli miss those days aft PSLE...where we have Yu Gi Oh & WWF cards...Gameboys & even have lots of fun running here & there...argh...!!!...everybody is heading different paths & have lot contact them...well time realli files fast...as we were not aware...4 yrs jus gone by & many things have also happened through this yrs...jus hope tt time can files back & have lots of fun again...but it isn't possible...so all i can do is...to recollect all the pasts...

well actually have a long lists of teachers i must thanks but i hereby would lyk to thxs all the teachers tt taught before me,help me in one way or another & also to all teachers tt i have talk too...as they have also given me the advice i needed...

(no offences if wat i say is wrong)

aft i reached home i toop a nap...& soon the sky turns blue & at around 7pm ++ i called daren as he asked me to have a game with him...soon we meet at 8pm & we also phone jeremy to joined us...abt 1/2 hr ltr...we starts the match & the final scores was 15-5 sets...each sets was 11 pts but we had some draws & we went over 11 pts...but it was fun anyway...although i have lost but i hav beaten the record...yesh...!!!...the game end around 10.40pm & thus we all went home as it was late alreadi...the day ended on a sweet note...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days have ended...十七天已结束了，我能在开新的故事吗。。。？？？。。。

5 days to 'N' lvl...

A week of silents...this isn't gd at all...cnt helped but feels sorri for everything i created or causes...

haizzz...

2008-08-28T22:06:00.003+08:00

woah...!!!...today is the final day of the intensive studies...well not sure if there r anymore...but im sure tt all of us or i hav benefit fr it totally...quite sad also...time jus flies...& 2 weeks past by so quick...mr fazlin hu was covering mr tan lesson had bid us gdbye...& all or most of the a.maths student fr 4a1 hav alreadi wished him a happy teacher's day le & hav also shake his hand as well...as mr tan will be back next week...it is kinda happy & yet sad...happy tt most likely intensive for maths lesson will come...as there r still rooms for improvement for me...sad is tt mr fazlin will be the last day teaching 4a1...dont even noe if there is a second chance for him to teach us...well he is an interesting teacher i mus say...haizzz...well SS exam is coming right up...& i can say im quite prepare for it...i hope tt my fellow classmates r also gear up...for this week...SS skills were drill into our head & all the topics r been recap through the week...

hurray...

tmr is also the teacher's day celebration & i hereby would lyk to wish all teachers...A Happy Teacher's Day 2008...

haha...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days has been covered by the clouds...十六天已被云给盖住，我该怎么把云扇开。。。

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6 days to 'N' lvl...

6 days...no calls & replys...this is totally worrying...haizzz...wats going on...???...am i not getting any infos on it...i nid a messenger...pls someone or anyone helped me...this is going far to off alreadi...the only thing i could say is...frozen...tt wats it is...frozen by it...cnt defrost it...it might not even defrost by its own...try too...but dont even noe the results...

things were created...hav lots of fun in it...things were then broken...then it will be very difficult hard to be mend back...but i still believe...if there is a will...there will be a way...thus i truly would love to solve it asap...if im given the chance...hope the time will come fast...

well the blamed r not to be push around...but r to be solve...how can i solve it...???...

haizzz...

2008-08-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

haizzz today is another brain tiring day...had 5 hrs of SS...chionging all the chpts tt we had learned so far...so ytd was alreadi a very stressful day...today was jus another repeat but with 1 hr more...well benefit fr it totally...all thxs to this intensive...many of us or for me hav gathered piles of infos at the shortest time...woah...!!!...quite amaze at the speed we r going...but well next week is alreadi prelims...so we dont hav much of a choice but to start rushing...only then we might be able to do well for it...it has been 3 days & counting since this intensive studies starts...& im almost use to this intensive alreadi...

hope to maximise to the fullest for all this lessons...hope tt my brain will be able to absorb everything & anything tt is relevant to SS...

got a scolding fr mr pang today...well cnt blamed him...my geo jus went down the drain...becos i scored only 27/50...basically i wasted all the marks tt i was supposed to achieve...but wat went wrong...???...i will achieve all of this at 'N' lvl...well i will not give up for geo...as it holds part of the marks or half of the marks for my Combined Hum...im alreadi studying for SS...so i cnt bear to fail my geo...cos im aiming to achieve great marks for it...or else it would defeat the whole purpose for the intensive studies for SS...

other lessons was as usual...tmr will be another battle...mus go prepare for it...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days has be written in the lyrics...十五天已写在歌词内，我应怎样把它唱出来。。。？？？。。。

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A week to 'N' lvl...

5 days never hav a chat...a phone call tt was a total regrets...cnt help but scolding the one hu called the call...haizzz...jus want to noe tt she has been doing fine...???...well if the call wasn't made...then she would hav gotten more time to do her stuffs...lots of smses were send...but no reply was made...well no offences...if u think tt im angry or pissed off...then u r wrong...im neither angry nor pissed off...im jus worry...as no news were heard fr her...everyone starts to avoid...haizzz...wrong decisions indeed...

haizzz...

2008-08-26T22:20:00.004+08:00

Well this week...we hav intensive studies for social studies...as 'N' lvl in round the corner...many of us r gearing up to prepare for it...others r preparing for all sorts of qns tt may surprise them...lots of them r also busy reading the textbks & notes over & over again...few or none r relaxing...basically this is the best period of time to check wat equipment or skills tt u lack...& fill it up now...or it might be to late...

It is confirmed tt today intensive hav causes many to be brain died...haha...4 hrs...is a very long period of time...& many r unable to capture all the info but all hav try their best to maximise to the fullest to rmb every bits of info they could find...informations were flying around everywhere...& many try to grab as much as possible...but the information was far to rich...thus many couldn't realli absorb it...therfore the brain is unable to process the infos immediately...but others smart one...hav gathered pt form to rmb...smart is the word i could say...to jolt down notes would help u the fullest...as only u would understand wat u writes...

I was also totally burned out too...even i hav managed to key in or crave everything into my head...processing of info wasn't so easy at all...things hav to be files correctly...so as to be able to found the things u need in times of needs...well mus realli thxs the teachers tt make this 2 days & counting intensive study a success...

EL & CL lessons was not very gd...as all of us was quite in the knock out state...anyway tmr will be another battle to gathered & stock this infos...hope to gear up & achieve the best...

Oh ya thxs CE for his present too...i will uploads the pic soon...anyway thxs Chong En again...

2+2+2+2+2+2+2 days were being smoked away...十四天已被烟走，我能把它找回来吗。。。？？？。。。

8 Days & counting to 'N' lv...

4 days never chat le...hope u r doing fine...

2008-08-25T20:48:00.003+08:00

wow...!!!...today has been an interesting day...actually went to sch...thinking it would be jus another sch day...but it turn out tt i was wrong...

haizzz...morning reflection,taking of the pledge & singing of national anthem & sch song was as per usual lar...but half way through the reading period...we were called to go to the AV theatre for some briefing or smth...thus we jus followed the order & head towards the theatre...when we reached there we were sitting there...waiting for someone to attend to us...but suddenly mr ong entered...he was holding quite a big pile of notes...i was quite stun too...mr lim also came in to talked to us...aft 1/2 hr passed...mr ong started to talk to us...telling us the reason for this class & he hav created a new timetable for us...& heres the timetable...25th - 29th August...

[Mon]

8.30am-9.00am - Assembly/Reading

9.00am-10.00am - Social Studies...SBQ skills : Inference & Purpose

10.00am-11.00am - EL

11.00am-12.00pm - Social Studies...SEQ skills & Chp 4. Sri Lanka

12.00pm-12.30pm - Recess

12.30pm-1.30pm - MT (CL)

1.30pm-2.30pm - Geo

2.30pm-4.30pm - A.maths

[Tue]

7.30am-8.20am - Social studies...SBQ skills : Usefulness

8.30am-9.00am - Assembly/Reading

9.00am-12.00pm - Social Studies...SEQ skills, Chp 4. Northern Ireland, Chp 2. Governance in Singapore, Chp 5. Bonding Singapore

12.00pm-12.30pm - Recess

12.30pm-1.30pm - Social Studies...SEQ skills & Chp 6. Diplomacy & Deterrence

1.30pm-2.30pm - MT (CL)

2.30pm-3.30pm - EL

[Wed]

7.30am-8.20am - Social studies...SBQ pratice : Inference, Purpose & Reliability

8.30am-9.00am - Assembly/Reading

9.00am-10.00am - Social Studies...Chp 3. Managing Healthcare in Singapore & Britain / Q & A

10.00am-11.00am - Social studies...SBQ skills & Bk 4 Chp 2. Globalisation

11.00am-12.00pm - EL

12.00pm-12.30pm - Recess

12.30pm-1.30pm - Social Studies...Q & A

1.30pm-2.30pm - Geo

[Thur]

7.30am-8.20am - Social studies...SBQ pratice : Compare & Contrast / Reliability

8.30am-9.00am - Assembly/Reading

9.00am-10.00am - POA

10.00am-11.00am - Social studies...SBQ skills : Compare & Contrast / Reliability

11.00am-12.00pm - MT (CL)

12.00pm-12.30pm - Recess

12.30pm-1.30pm - Maths

1.30pm-2.30pm - ?

2.30pm-3.30pm - A.maths

[Fri]

7.30am-8.20am - Social studies...Q & A

8.30am-9.00am - Assembly/Reading

then the rest of the day...should be teachers day celebration...

well...1st of all...mus thxs mr ong for spending his weekends planning this timetable...thxs u mr ong for cross refering to many timetables to come up with this...very big thxs...well eng lesson was so cool today...becos there was another teachers in it...his name is Mr Charles Barton...he was such an interesting man...he made the whole class had a great laugh...learn some great skills from him too...well lets guess...wat do KISS means...???...well it simply mean Keep It Simple Stupid...haha...no offence to anyone...basically the whole week is intensive study for Social Studies...well then it comes all the way to A.maths lesson...

A.maths lesson was the most fun of all...then i was also pissed off too...well no offence too...i jus couldn't focus or concentrate on the tasks...haizzz...

recently im feeling very down as i jus cnt focus or concentrate on anything & everything...

haizzz...

it is onlt lyk 9 days to my actual 'N' lvl exams & im still not settled down...well kinda worry...jus dont feel tt right at all...so many things waiting for me to attend to & so many stuffs tt im suppose to do...i jus cnt find the time to even touch on it...jus feel very sad & depress...at basically myself...dont even noe wat is the best steps for me to take nexts...could anyone helped me...pls tell me wat to do or drop me a hint or two...i might jus get back in time...

2+2+2+2+2+2+1 days has been silent...could the music ever be sung again...十三天已安静下来，我该怎么把这音乐响起。。。？？？。。。

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2008-08-24T22:36:00.002+08:00

well today got BXB...therefore as usual lar...wake up early in the morning to prepare myself...well u always wanna show others the best side of urself...didn't expect such nos of ppls today...unexpected is the word i would say...realli find it very weird to hav such less ppls & especially quiet today...well almost fall aslp during the whole session...hey where r all the noise & fun in it...???...could anyone ans me...???...i would says tt a lot of ppls didn't attend today...thus it silents the whole background...but there r also the regular...well anyone noes hu r they...???...i dont even think u hav seen them before...today has been quite a nice day too...there was a shower jus now...& thus it brings down the whole atmosphere & surrounding...as in the air becomes more fresher in a sense & the breeze tt come forth is much cooler...woo...the water tt is coming out of the tap is also cooling & the floor r also frozen...lyk ice...???...

got to hear the whole story or partly for someone...i truly thxs the person tt told me everything...& i would lyk to apologize to all the person & parties invovled...haizzz...jus hope the rain of misunderstanding could be cleared soon...asap...therfore aft the rain...would come the colourful rainbow...& the loving sun...thus it will shines its warmth towards us...jus realli hope tt the misunderstanding will be gone with the cold breeze...at the very least...let me explains myself...only by letting me to explain...then it will be cleared...

2+2+2+2+2+2 days hav been carried away by the rain...十二天已被雨带走。。。能不能再让我拿回。。。？？？。。。

。。。

2008-08-23T23:38:00.002+08:00

Jus reached home fr religious class...felt quite tired...but nevertheless i went to my grandparents hse...becos i heard tt my grandfather's leg is swollen & i heard tt it is quite serious...well therefore i went up to look at him...jus hope tt he can recover fast...hope tt he quickly go to a doctor for treatment...well i also heard tt his is finally going to the doctor tmr...well tts gd news...

haizzz...

dont even noe how i could helped at all...feel kinda sad to heard it...well the only thing i could do...is to talked to him & asked him abt his condition...but words r jus words...it jus cnt totally express the sincerity in it...well words can make someone to be over the moon & it also can cause great damages as well...but wat am i going to do...???...

haizzz...

jus feels lyk giving up...but if i give up now...then for the past 16 years in my life...i hav been asking ppls to not give up & now im actually giving up...???...wat a joke it will be...how will i be able to faces my frens tt i persuade them to persevere...???...how will i face my challenges in the future...if i would to give up now...???...how am i to ans to my competitors if i jus let go of everything...???...thus this will make a irresponsible guy...i jus dont even in the clear state of mind to make the right decisions...currently im jus using watever ways i hav to jus cope on...well hope tt someone or any of my frens will tell me wat to do... ... ...

2+2+2+2+2+1 days r being burned off...十一天已被烧毁了，我要怎样把它拿回。。。

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2008-08-23T08:56:00.002+08:00

well wake up quite early today...then the sky suddenly seems to rain...& it stopped...then it rain again...it is jus lyk how i feel...sometime rain & it suddenly stopped...cnt helped it...jus dont even noe when it will start & end...

haizzz...

jus feel so hopeless...at basically everything & anything...jus hope tt i dont create grave mistakes tt i would regrets it...wished tt i will be able to solve the problems tt i hav created...but its seems tt i dont even hav the rights to even touch on the problems...

well if only a miracle can happened...so everything will be solved...but we mus also work towards into solving it on our own...even a miracle would to happen...we also should not rely too much on it...jus think tt i hav causes greater harm than bring any goodness to any of my frens...

most probably...evryone is hating me as watever i hav done cnt make it up to those i hav committed...

haizzz...

even a small mistakes could evolved into a greater problems...if only everything will be cleared aft the shower of the rain...& to those tt persevere...only to those will be able to experience the colourful & brightnessof the rainbow aft the shower...i realli wished to get to c the rainbow...even if im soaked in the rain...or get totally wet...i dont mind...

i jus think tt the rainbow hav 7 colours...it is a mixture of the different colours...tt it created the rainbow...actually the rainbow consist of

1-Red ---===---

2-Orange ---===---

3-Yellow ---===---

4-Green ---===---

5-Blue ---===---

6-Indigo ---===---

7-Violet ---===---

...

& each of the colours will represent smth...such beautiful stuffs...but it only lasted for a short while...such a waste...y cnt it be there for a longer period...???...

dont understand at all...jus believe tt the rainbow will be captured in my heart...hope to be able to shine this 7 colours to all my frens...especially u (u will noe hu u r...if u dont then nvm)...

2008-08-22T21:37:00.007+08:00

well today is Friday & today is always the best day of the week...becos im able to put down everything & mayb take a break fr it...haizzz...1st period today was P.E...but the weather dont permits us to hav a match of soccer...thus we hav our very own badminton sparring session & indoor soccer...well but there weren't enough nets & space for us to play...therefore we hav to share...dont noe tt we share with 2 or 3 other classes...

aft P.E...went back to homeroom...wow...!!!...once i enter the rooms...it is so cold...well basically it is very cooling for all of us...then mrs tan took over the lesson to return our Eng paper...waaa...so depressing lor...aft looking at the pathetic marks i got...haizzz...well...shall leave tt aside...then chi teacher came in as mrs tan nid to rush off...well hav a few matches of Chi Chess here & there for this past few days...well there r wins & loses...

SS paper wasn't returned again...as mr ong is busy with other stuffs...so mr chia took over the lesson...well done some qns paper on Chem...haizzz...Chem is also one of my weakest subs...sianzzz...soon the lesson was over & its time to go home...hurray...went back home & aft lunch i took a nap...all the way until evening...wohoo...!!!...

aft waking up took my dinner then i started sitting infront on my com...aft many hrs & suddenly...

well jus receive this sms fr my fren at 10.08pm...

华文--- [ 书上说吃糖对牙不好我就把糖戒了；

书上说吃薯片对胃不好我就把薯片戒了；

书上说常跟你联系对脑子不好，

他妈的~我把书撕了！

这感情！

哪能戒？

今天是世界最疼朋友日，

发给你最疼的朋友超过6人，

会幸运全年！

可回发！

只想告诉你，

你是我最珍贵的朋友之一！

认识你，

这一辈子--值得！ ]

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well basically it means...(translation)

English ---- [The book hav recorded tt sweets is bad for the tooth as it causes tooth to decay therefore i quit eating sweets...the book also says tt potato chip r bad for the stomach so i also quit it...next the book also says tt always communicating with u is harmful to the brain...xxx...thus i tear the book...this feeling & connection...how could i forget & quit it...today is world most loving fren day...send this to 6 or more of ur most loving fren...u will be lucky the whole year round...u can also send it back to me...i only wanna tell u...u r one of my most loving frens...to get to noe u...for this lifetime...it totally worth it...] ---

* hey pardon me if my translation is incorrect...well tts very sweet lar...

so touched to receive such sms...well it a long time since i send chain message...thus i decided to send this to all my frens out there...well if u think u r a fren of mine...then u will understand the true message behind this sms...

2+2+2+2+2 days rise towards the sky & vanish into thin air...十天已飞上天了，也慢慢消失在空气里面。。。好想把空气吸回，把这十天给拿回来。。。

2008-08-21T21:18:00.004+08:00

Wow...!!!...today is quite a fun day for me lar...as some guests is visiting our sch fr ytd to the next few days...so as to keep the volume down...all the homerooms r being freeze...as in we dont hav to move fr class to class...thus this make us able to enjoyed the air-con for the whole day...we r quite lucky to get a classroom located at lvl 3...well in fact it is realli freezing inside...as it is being frozen...haha...(*cold)

Today more of the teachers r not free as there is EV...therefore many relief teachers covered the lessons...well hav lots of fun when the homerooms is frozen...haizzz...but im also very worry tt next week is 'O' lvl maths paper le...& i dont even noe whether i hav confident enough to take the paper...i jus hope tt i will put in my best & everything i got into the upcoming exams...basically 'N' lvl prelims is over le...then next come 'O' lvl maths & up next is actual 'N' lvl & 'O' lvl maths paper...chiong everybody...!!!...mus achieve towards the best of the very best...basically the targeted marks u set for urself...haizzz...feel so up sad abt the results tt im getting now...i think i mus realli spend my time more wisely & study even hard...

haizzz...(*sad)

i dont wan to let anyone look down on me & neither would i wish to look down on others...well everybody hav their strong pts & weaknesses...try to look at others strong pts & reflect on ur own weaknesses...make others ur role model & always remind urself tt a mirror is always in front of u always reflecting on ur action...(*reflecting)

well today i also receive 2 gd news...1st is fr Jeremy de...he hav entered into NUS choir...congrats to Jeremy...wohoo...knew he could do it de...& up next is tt both grps tt my cca hav send in for the chorale assessment hav achieve distinction...congrats again...pls work harder for the upcoming events...basically it is a double blessing...blessing fr both a fren & choir members...well when r ur gonna celebrate then...???...mus rmb to invite me...记得邀请我。。。(*congrats)

2+2+2+2+1 days hav swim with the waves le & where r u...???...jus thinking of it makes me sad & hurt... ... ...九天以飘过了，你在哪里，好想回到从前。。。(*...???...)

well tonight has not been a pleasant night for me...haizzz...it is the 1st time i hav been scolded through a phone...& some more so loudly...i noe this is also her 1st time scolding someone over the phone...fine i admit it is totally my fault or the timing i called in was wrong...well for tt i totally regret making the call...i dont even noe wat she is going to do next & i also dont noe wat to say or do either...haizzz...alreadi use to it le lar...as i quickly adapt to some thing new...haizzz...im so sorri tt i caused so much commotions...tt caused everyone to flare up...& thus it makes everyone angry, irritated & fed up...well realli hope tt i will not commit this mistakes again & i wont called in unless the situation permits me...which will be in once in a blue moon...(well if only i could paint the moon with blue)...(*regrets)

well life is full of up & down & we mus be able to accept the down & not be too proud of the up in life...haizzz but ppls always cnt accept this down at the very beginning & will promote to others all their up...well basically tt wat im experiencing now...i jus cnt accept or dislike anything now...i jus feel very tired now & i realli nid a gd rest...haizzz...

内疚。。。

失望。。。

难过。。。

伤心。。。

(*HAIZZZ)...

2008-08-20T14:55:00.004+08:00

19th August...Wohoo...!!!...finally returned back to sch le...well i got my POA mark le...yes...but i didn't expect tt well i would scored a 83 for it...hurray...but also received Chem...for chem it was not very well done...haizzz...i scored only lyk 23/50...so pathetic...

20th August...reached hm quite early today...haizzz...my combined sci cnt make it le...cause overall i only manage to score a 43...& for A.maths...it is even worse...haizzz...a mere 14/140 only...realli feel so sad...i think tt i hav fail lots of ppls expectation towards me...jus feel so depress over it & so sad lor...haizzz...hope tt the rest of my subs dont fail me...well currently im thinking tt i will study for Eng,Combined Hum,Maths & POA...& put even more effort into A.maths,Chi & Combined Sci...hope to achieve the best result tt i will wan...i dont wished to lose out to my frens & especially to my bro...his foundation is so gd lar...& his Poa...is so strong...i can barely match up with him...therefore i will put in more hard work into studying...well for me to study...it is a rare chance & sight...haizzz...i also mus say tt for those who hav fail badly...dont think tt the person who pass is mocking at u...i hav experience to pass & yet fail at the same time...

haizzz...& for those who r having lots of problems in sch & other matters...pls think as many time as u wan to jus do the right decisions...& hope tt this decision wont be a regret to u...even there is others tt hate u or dislike u...there will also be ppls tt care for u & wished to help u...well always think on the better side & not sunk deeper into despair...jus hope tt everything will come smoothly & all the best...

take care...

2+2+2+2 days hav vanish...hows life...???...r u doing fine...???...hope tt u will not regret anything...

2008-08-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

Today was a very long day...as i hav been at hm for the whole time...well basically im down with a very bad headache...haizzz...well had some gd news fr my frens...& hope tt tmr when i go back to sch...there will be some left for me...

Jus got shot again...haizzz...becos of smth i hav & haven't done again...misunderstanding causes everything...long story lar...well jus hope tt everything will soon be clear & everything will return to its normal position again...didn't managed the tasks tt im suppose to do...& i sincerely apologize to all tt r involve...jus thinking tt im useless & too "smart"...jus to handle such cases...jus scold watever ur wan...i will not blame all those tt r involve de...jus do watever ur wan too...

haizzz...

...

i realli dont noe wat to do next & wat to say to jus amend the mistakes tt i hav created...therefore i could only say sorri...

...

2+2+2 hav passed by lyk the wind...haizzz...don't even noe she read le mah...???...& when will ppls ever understand wat im doing...???...jus feel sadded lar...cnt feel any worst...

haizzz...1st time got hit...is also becos of this reason & now again...has history repeat itself...cnt believe it...y m i the one got hit not once but twice...well the saying also says tt "once bitten,twice shy"

haizzz...

hope tt time could recover all the wounds & pain

...

2008-08-17T21:47:00.003+08:00

15th of August marks the last paper for my prelims...haizzz & the paper is A.maths 2...well basically i dont realli think tt i can scored well for it & a lots of things happened throughout the paper...haha...so funny lar...

16th of August was quite a boring & sian sat for me...therefore i will not blog anything for it...lol...!!!...

17th of August...my religion hav a food & game carnival...well wake up quite early to prepared but i ended up reaching there at around 10am ++...many things tt i didn't expected to happened hav happen...basically...i had a fun day mending the stalls & playing with my frens...haizzz...i played until 3pm ++...aft tt i went back hm...well reached hm in a quite tired state...haizzz...

...

2+2+1 days hav gone by le...

2008-08-14T13:51:00.003+08:00

Waaa...finish Chem & Poa P.1 today...feel kinda relax...was quite stun at Chem today...& for Poa i hav confidence tt i will be able to get a gd mark...well but i still got one last lap to go...& tt is a.math...but i realli got no confidence at all...although the last lap is short but i jus cnt complete it with the target tt i hav set...realli disappointed...well i jus wanna complete all the exams at once...i realli dont hav much time le as the exam will come in a breeze & it will go lyk a wind...well prelims r almost over & next will come 'O' lvl maths prelims...then actual 'N' lvl & next will be the actual 'O' lvl maths...Argh...!!!...well i gonna strive all the way towards it...i will not tt much time to go out le...

haizzz...

dont noe wat to say...

only noe tt things wont be the same anymore...

well...

2nd day le & no reply was send to me...mayb she haven't read it yet...

2008-08-13T13:44:00.003+08:00

Well ytd jus completed 2 papers...Physics & Maths P2...haizzz...almost fall aslp for both paper...basically, i slp at 2am in the morning...both the paper were quite ok...then aft the exam...i went back to choir again...but it keeps me thinking...y i hav been goin to choir so often...???...well i dont even noe the ans myself... ... ...tired,tired & tired...zzz...

Today was a nice morning...but today got Geo & A.maths P1...i also dont noe wat to do...actually ytd thought of studying geo for abit more...but i accidentally dozed off...opps...well today geo paper was average as i hav rmb all the stuffs tt i mus rmb...but towards the end of the paper...while i was going through & checking...my teacher was looking at my direction...well i noe y lar...it is becos i left a 6 marks qns blank & he looked very stunned...haha...i noe tt he will kill me lar...aiya die le lar...i told him A1 was within my reach & i left the qns blank...haizzz...sorri mr pang...but pls dont looked so stunned leh...i will try to scored at 'N' lvl...

However A.maths was worse...i think i could only managed to scored 10 ??? ...haizzz...dont wished to talked or add on anymore...

y of all the time...it come now...so many things i hav to settle...so many things jus waiting for me to do & say...haizzz...now i jus dont feel lyk studying...i jus wanna take a break fr everything & i realli wished to be flying free...to be free fr all troubles,worrys & problems...i dont wished to say anymore or any other things le...

...

1 day hav gone pass le...no reply...

2008-08-12T01:08:00.014+08:00

Well got hit again for the 3rd time...

... (Pain)(Sadded)(Guilty) ...

HAIZZZ...NOBODY WILL EVER BELIEVE THIS...

!!!

Well on the 11th of August 08...i finally make my last move & thus it causes a lots of things to be affected as well...haizzz...maybe i hav make the wrong desicion again,mayb im too boastful,mayb i think tt i could solve the problems...well thxs for so looking up to me...but i jus refuses or i jus cnt seems to complete any tasks on my hands...& mayb im jus incapable or useless or even selfish...well in order to achieve smth...u nid to trade with smth of a same value & thus i trade xxx (i also dont noe wat to put here) for her education...well ur might think tt im a hyprocrite for saying this...but i hav alreadi carry out on the whole thing le...i can confirm tt...my action will cause many to be unhappy,angry & even pissed off...well...i noe tt i will be the trigger or the root cause tt pull off everything & thus this will make everyone hate me but basically i hav no regret in wat i hav done...mayb wat i hav done is stupid or mayb it isn't worth..."mayb im jus a baka guy with no brains,immature,do things without thinking & loves to act cool" quoted fr my previous post...well mayb wat my fren hav scolded me is quite true...well all of ur reading this might think tt i hav causes more harm then gd...as i hav made more ppls getting involve into emo state...haizzz...well i also hav nth to say le lar & i also will focus totally on my studies le...well for the sake of 'N' & 'O' lvl & also for my future education...Now for her...i will wished her especially all the best for her studies & everything tt will come in her way & also to all my frens out there too...well jus hope tt everyone & her will understand the meaning y i done such decisions...but i noe tt watever i hav done ppls always think tt im doing smth bad...jus let me continue to be the bad guy then...well got use to it le lar...& i jus hope tt she will get to read this & fully understand the reason for my action...i dont mind u scolding me or even ask me go die lar...

sms me when u hav read this (u noe hu u r lar)...

!!!

2008-08-12T00:54:00.003+08:00

Well went out today (11th August) to East Coast for cycling & i will upload the photos soon & i will also update more on it...so stay tuned...

2008-08-11T23:52:00.020+08:00

Well on the 10th August 08...Montfort Sec Sch is having a Heritage Quest at Hougang Mall & also the choir is performing & therefore Jeremy is conducting for today...woke up quite early tt day & i started preparing for the events...i phone him at around 7.30am & he told me tt the bus is arriving in 5 mins...therefore i quickly grabbed my stuffs & head to the meeting pt...but i saw no sight of Jeremy & soon i saw the bus arriving & leaving soon too...now then Jeremy appear before me...tsk,tsk,tsk...c lar i told u le...not to rushed...haizzz...well we waited for the next bus & soon enough the bus arrived & thus we boarded the bus & head str to Hougang Mall...on the way there we chatted for awhile & immediately i could hear tt Jeremy's voice is in a very bad state...as he is having a sore throat today...!!!...but when we reached Hougang mall...we only saw a member & tt is Yun hong...fair enough...i already expected tt this will happen as they have a very fun yet wild party ytd...time flies & soon more members starts to gather & finally we could start the warm-up & preparation...Below r a few pics of the pre-performance...well credits to Jeremy for lending his camera to me... (Above) "Hey be focus everyone...i noe ur r still tired"...
(Above) "Well anyway ur hav to warm-up"...
(Above) Its still seems tt they look quite restless...

(Above) Still not relax at all...all look so tense...

(Above) "Hey stopped moving"...

(Above) Finally we can start warm up le...

(Above) All the 4 pics r them warming up...
Finally, aft long waited...the Guest of Honor hav arrived & tt this marks the start of the whole performances...well below r the choir having their actual performance...

(Above) This r all the pics tt i hav taken when they r performing...

(Above) Finally, the chorale hav finish their 3 song...& now they r leaving the stage...

(Above) Well aft the whole event...we took a pic with the Guest of Honor (Eunice Olsen)...well i dont quite rmb the details abt the whole events...so i will end here...well ppl says tt a pic tells thousand words...so i will let ur think abt the whole events...haha...Xp...aft tt when to popular to buy some stuffs & off to KFC to wait for Jeremy & Daren to finish their lunch & aft tt we all went hm...tt all for the day...

2008-08-09T09:38:00.016+08:00

Well...8th August marks the mystery tt i jus found out tt my food intake is getting greater then before...is lyk it suddenly jumped back lor...haha...so funny yet so cool lor...haizzz...dont noe wat to say lar...well on the 8th...we celebrated quite a few events at once shot...we hav the Youth & Racial Harmony Day cum National day...well early in the morning...i meet julio & together we walked to sch...well had a gd morning chit-chat session with him as we walked all the way to sch...we walked & walked & suddenly while standing outside the sch...we were greeted by a scene of the jr studs (most of them wearing red) standing in the field & we were lyk WOW to c them...as it is still very early to assemble...well aft entering the sch...i waited quite some time before the signal to assemble at the field...cos today we will be having a combined observance ceremony with the jr sch...i think tt waited for us lyk for at least 15 mins...???...well we quickly assemble & a stud shouted the command to start the whole ceremony & there marks the start of everything...aft the whole ceremony...the jr sch & the sec sch seperate for their own hall events...well for the sec sch side there is different performances by various grps...1st of all...here we hav the malay studs & their dance & followed by another dance by our indian studs...& finally a chinese song sang by a few grps of teachers...well tt all for the hall events & up next we hav the Youth & Racial Harmony Carnival...well wasn't much of a help at all...cos this yr my class is selling drinks...well aft the whole events...we head back to our class & hav our own debrief...& aft sch...i rushed to get my CCA cert back to my form teacher & smth very interesting happened...well basically it make me quite shock & stun...i saw this female stud who is praying at the alter...so therefore i dont dare to walk over...& thus i took my hp & ans a call (fake de lar)...so aft i thought she left...i went to pray & then i suddenly turn around & saw the girl hiding behind a pillar & looking at me...haha...well so funny lar...& someone still says smth bad lar (u noe hu u r lar...haha...Xp)...haizzz...well aft tt i went home & grab my cert & a few other stuffs & head back to sch...aft passing the cert i also went up & send over the stuffs to her le...

1st of all...let me wished SINGAPORE a happy 43rd bdae as it was 9th of August...& also to everyone out there too...Haizzz... ... ...

Was so angry fr the start of the very 1st reherseal...becos fr the very start i wanna take some grp pics of the choir...but i only managed to took some before they went for the actual performance...luckily im able to take some lar or else... ... ...

Anyway here r the pics below...Credits to Jeremy for lending his camera... (Above) Woo...here the lunch min break before boarding the bus..."hey quickly eat leh...the bus coming"...
(Above) "Quick all of ur pls hurry up & finish all the food/drink & watever business ur hav to go do & be prepare to board the bus"...Everybody is almost gear up for the performance...

(Above) "Now pls line up in 2 & we hav to do a head count"...

(Above) "Hey final clearance of ur stuffs & ur r ready to board the bus le"...Now they r going to board the bus le...

(Above) "Hey wait lets take a grp pic before i forgot & before ur board the bus"...A Combined pic on Choir & Non-Choir members...

(Above) & now the 2nd pic of the combined grp...

(Above) & now lets hav fun & hav a fun shot...

(Above) Here the Teachers with the Ex-cos...

(Above) Here the Teachers with the dancers or stud leaders...

(Above) Finally, presenting the Teachers with the Ex-cos together with the dancers...Thus this make up the whole stud leaders with the Teachers-in-charge...

Great thxs to all my jrs & non-choir members for putting all the hard work for the actual performance & ur mus be soaking with water through the whole performance...haha...im sure ur hav fun too & ur mus hav realli enjoyed the whole performance & the experience u hav been through & i bet ur hav made a handful of new frens too...well ur hard work is worth as ur do ur best for the performance...well aft tt we bid farewell to them & wished for all the best to them & thus together with Jeremy we went home...well aft tt i went out again...well luckily i was able to reach home in time to watch the Live telecast of the NDP '08...well tt all for the day & it marks the end of 9th of August...

2008-08-07T22:58:00.003+08:00

Well today jus completed another 2 subs partly...Maths wasn't so hard or difficult tt i have expect...but it wasn't so easy also...all i can say tt i did managed to complete all the qns but i fear tt i might not hav done so well...maybe it is becos im not totally prepared & i haven been putting all my effort on my academic...On the other hand...Poa was ok for the 1st part...& i was totally stunned at the 2nd section...well gone le lar...i try again...the more difficult qn tt most of my classmates didn't choose & it is goin to be same as last year or this year...???...haizzz...well i challenge myself to the limits again to c how far or how much i could handed...well dont wished to talked abt Poa or academic now...wat i wished for now...is to hav peace & rest for the rest of the week...& be prepared for next week prelim...aft sch...i went to choir...well finally they noe their position for sun performance le & i wished them all the best for the performance on sun & aft choir prac...it was raining heavily & i was lyk shouting...becos thinking of dancing in the rain...is lyk so cool lar...& i realli dance in the rain as i walked hm...well i reached hm with a few drops of rainwater stainning on my maroon choir tee...quite sadded lar...well tt all for the day...& if i hav been bothering anyone or everyone...im sorri...well i jus wanna say 2 lines of words...

" 害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。"...

Smile on...

2008-08-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

Well to add on further to my pervious post...i will elaborate more on the concert...& i will also shared with all the readers of my blog the details & happening of the concert...Firstly, ytd all of us were in a rush as all of us rushed down to esplanade...me together with my jrs (Anthony,Chong en,Han inn & Ying wei) took 2 cabs to the destination...dont asked me y...???...becos the uncle refuses to take all of us there...nvm lar i dont blamed the uncle anyway we took quite a long journey to esplanade...Secondly, we waited for abt 1/2 hr - 45mins for the host to arrived as she invited us to go...& for the period of time...we went to the the toilet to play with the tap...i think the cleaners looked very angry lor...well sorri uncle...well i think she is late becos smth cropped up...nvm lar we r gentlemen...so we waited lor...but all of us r very worry tt we wont made it in time...nevertheless surpises r always around the corner...finally the host arrived & we hurry into the concert hall...Omg...althought we hurry into the hall but we forgot to take the concert booklet...how can we attend a concert without a concert booklet...therefore i shouted Anthony to go grab some...haizzz...finally got hold of the booklet & i browse through it & to my amazement...i saw a song tt i have long to hear...Thirdly,finally the start of the concert & we were greeted by the Raffles Voices...there sang "Resonet in Laudibus" & "All Creatures Now"...& up next is one of the nice songs tt gather my attention...& it is the "Who Shall have my Lady Fair"...this piece totally dragged me into the whole concert...& next they sang "Set me as a Seal upon your Heart","Cerf-volant","Exsultate Justi","Chrystus Pan Sie Narodzil","Lux Aurumque","Jaakobin Isot Pojat" & "Pokpok Alimpako"...aft tt it is INTERMISSION...we all went to tour the toilets again...haha this is a different toilet...well aft intermission...we sat back at our seats & again the Raffles Voices sang another 5 songs...& the 5 songs r "Ave Regina","Ama Namen","Rondes","Blackbird" & "Baylere"...next they sang a very simple yet nice piece...it is title as "Twinkle, Twinkle, little star"...now they have shown their audience tt even a simple piece could be sang in a different & unique way...aft tt they had a piece tt is named "Ta Tikee Tei" & they perform with a few instruments...well next the Alumni showed on stage & they performed 2 pieces...& they also done smth very funny...well the audience had quite a laugh...Aft the Alumni exit the stage...the Raffles Voice came up & performed another 2 pieces...the 2 pieces r "Flying Free" where they had a flute performing together with them & it totally captured my attention... & "Do you hear the people sing ?" where this piece attracted everyone eyes & ear to the stage & music...& Lastly, they sang their theme song...& i was lyk WOW !!!...i totally mus say tt their soloist roxs & all the members of Raffles Voices r so gd...well aft he concert...we seperated & went hm...

2008-08-06T15:00:00.003+08:00

Well at 12.10pm...it marked the end of prelim for EL...yeah...!!!...so happy...finally over le...Chi & EL r over le & now for the other subs...i mus find out how gd/bad i hav done for my prelim & thus i can worked & attacked the problem's roots & not only the vines...haha...i jus hope tt i could catched up in time with the rest of my classmates & i dont wished to lag behind...i wanna chiong as much as i can...haizzz...

Today the paper was quite ok lor...for P1...section 1 i wrote smth similar to Chi...so im quite quite scare & worry now...& i think i have done only fairly gd...& for P2...i kinda screw up...cos my summary i wrote over the limits of words...well all my fault lar...i thought i hav enough time...but i ended with lesser time i expected...well wat over is over...i jus hav to wait for the result to be out...

Ytd was a amazing day...cos i attended a concert...woah...!!!...cnt believe it...im totally amaze by the performers & evrything...lots of things happened lar...but i jus dont wanna talked abt it...

well i hope tt......

Smile on...

2008-08-05T13:28:00.021+08:00

Wohoo...!!!...finish Chi P1 & P2 le...so happy lar...Xp...free fr Chi le...well for P1 i completed it...Omg...cnt believe it myself...LOL...!!!...i think i did quite gd lor...for P2 it was lyk i complete it within 1hrs...well wat can i say...all thxs to my Chi teacher...she make us do lots of exam paper & we mus complete it within 1hr & today i manage to compele it within an hour...thxs lao shi...Xp...

Ytd celebrated Miss mo's bae & we held a party at the romantic area (well i created le lar)...actually it is jus a "small study area" outside D&T...haha...we also hold a small concert there...haha...Below r a few pics i hav taken...

(Above) The 1st pic of the cake...
(Above) The 2nd pic of the cake...

(Above) The 3rd pic of the cake...

(Above) The 4th pic of the cake...

& below r all of daren's work/pics...haha...credit to Daren Ng for the pics...thxs...

(Above) The 5th pic of the cake...

(Above) The 6th pic of the cake...

(Above) The 7th pic of the cake...

(Above) The 8th pic of the cake...

(Above) Finally...Miss mo & the alumni...Keith,Jeremy,Daren & me (Fr Left - Right)

(Above) The solo pic of Miss mo & the cake...

(Above) & now Miss mo & the Ex-cos of choir (Ying wei,Jia jun,Yun hong,me & Anthony) [Fr Left- Right]...well they all looking at camera 3...while i look at camera 1...haizzz...oi can ur tell me which camera ur using...???...

(Above) & now a gd pic...finally ur noe which camera to use le...haha...Xp...

(Above) Yw stopped looking at ur hp...& whose hand is it...???...

(Above) & now some poses...& y all dodge away...???...

(Above) again lar...the camera-man dont use the right camera...well actually is i look away de lar...LOL...!!!...

(Above) another pic on the Ex-cos & Miss mo...

(Above) Hey...whose hand it is...Oi u got washed ur hand...???...omg...ltr i still wanna eat the cake leh...haha...jk nia...

(Above) & now for the cake cutting...

(Above) & now the cake has been cut...

Aft all the singing of bae song & cake cutting...we hav a minor party & concert...haha...so cool...Jeremy,Keith,Daren & me were havin a recap of all the songs we noe...we link most of the songs together...but we r very random lar...haha...tt all for the celebration...hope all tt r involved hav enjoy the whole celebration...& if ur hav not noticed...most of the pics r on cake...well Miss mo dont be sad...but i noe we took too many pics on the cake le...well i hav a fun time at there...& i wished to credits all those tt make it a success...

Below r those ppls i wished to credits...& it is not by ranking...or who hav done the most for this celebration...& if i miss out anyone...pls tell me...

Jeremy

Keith

Daren

Yun Hong

Jia Jun

Anthony

Ying wei

Chong en

All chorale members

& finally Miss mo

as well as the cake shop...well we make quite a last min order...

so smile on...Xp...

2008-08-02T12:57:00.029+08:00

13 long days of not blogging...haizzz...busy le lar..."N" lvl prelim coming le & soon the actual "N" lvl...mus start chionging le...mus get the score tt i hav set on...i mustn't sway again...

Well thxs Jeremy TT1 (Members of TTS)...for buying chocos & key chains for the TTS...well i hereby thxs u...LOL...!!!...below r some pics i hav taken...

(Above) Here the Key chains & Chocos...haiya...wasted...got 1 kangaroo fall...well i think it is becos the leg is unstable...or i didn't put it in a good standing position...X(...

(Above) There Jeremy taking a packet of Kit Kat...omg the packaging is so nice...i hav never see before the Kit Kat with a green packaging de lor & some more the flavour is mint...

(Above) Here the close up...so nice...cnt stand it...well Jeremy gave some to us & he saved some for his studs also...but the chocos got abit melted...haha...

(Above) Now for the key chains...here the Kangaroo...so nice lar...

(Above) & here the 2nd pics for the kangaroo...Daren & Eugene took the 2 kangaroos...

(Above) Woah...!!!...now for the Koala bear...

(Above) This is the 2nd pics on the Koala bear...Anthony & me chooses the bear lor...

(Above) & here everyone gathered...Daren,Me,Anthony & Eugene (Fr Left - Right)

(Above) & now...Jeremy join the pic...

(Above) & once more...the TTS unite...all the pioneer lvl hav gathered le...so cool lor...

(Above) well everyone looked very tired le...of course lar...aft a very,very long day...zzz...

(Above) c even Keith agree tt the chocos is good...

(Above) Omg...here the different flavour of chocos...wow...!!!...so colourful...

(Above) & now the different flavour of chocos r goin to be given out le...

(Above) Here Jeremy's choco...MINT INTENSE flavour...TT1

(Above) Here mine choco...EXTRA CREAMY/CREMOSO flavour...TT2

(Above) Here Daren's choco...CHERRY INTENSE flavour...TT3

(Above) Here Eugene's choco...COFFEE INTENSE flavour...TT4

(Above) Here Anthony's choco...CRUNCHY CARAMEL flavour...TT5

& once again...i mus thxs Jeremy for all the chocos & key chains he hav bring back fr Australia...well & i hope tt Miss mo dont scold me...cos i took this pics during choir prac...haha...LOL...!!!...Xp...

2008-07-19T17:00:00.002+08:00

i almost died again...i also dont understand...y the word "die" keep on revolving my world...it means tt recently i hav been hearing it more often & even "meeting" it...well abt the bus incident...tt jus passed not long ago & somemore it happened twice...well i really cnt believe it...& jus now while i was slping...i heard this very loud scream...& in the state of half awake & half slping...my heart stopped for tt few secs...which made me very uncomfortable...i thought i almost stopped breathing & my heart it feels lyk it is being frozen or harden...well i quickly rushed out of bed to the toilet...& dont noe y...my tears jus dropped down...i really feels the pain...well still recovering fr it now...but my heart...still feels lyk it is being frozen & harden...i hope tt word will be disappearing soon... ... ... ... ... ... ...

2008-07-19T13:08:00.005+08:00

Woah...!!!...so many things happened through this week...well on Mon i almost died...haha...then on Tues...went out with my frens...then dont noe y lar...i jus head to Woodlands...i hav been thinking a lots lar...i jus do things which i dont even understand...well if i hav done anything wrong...pls forgive me...then on Wed...becos Mr Chia hav smth on...he was not in sch...& so his Chem period is taken by another teacher & guess who is the teacher...???...LOL...!!!...i didn't expect it will be Miss mo...but the whole period i hav being doing my maths lor...but some funny thing happened lar...at first she walked over to my table & snatch my math paper away & she said "Roy do my Chem 1st" (becos we r supposed to return the paper back to her at the end of the period but im doing my maths)...haha...Xp...then she jus took my paper & walked back to her desk lor...then i give a smile back...haha...aft tt i asked my frens to go to her desk to take my paper...cnt believe it...my fren also dont dare to take for me lor...haizzz...but in the end...i still got back my paper...basically tt all for Wed...then move on to Thurs...im back le...i hav also pass all the dutites to the Ex-cos le...i felt quite carefree le...then on Fri...hav a very fun aftnoon playing the new game tt Daren & i hav created...but im also stress abt the design lor...haizzz...i thought tt once i hav let go the chorale matters (公事)...then i will be able to be more carefree...but aft i let go, more matters (私事) come in...im very stressed now...how i wished to rest more...but i will wants all my frens to continue to smile on...Xp...

2008-07-16T18:26:00.002+08:00

Well on the 14th of July....a very terrible thing happened to me for the 2nd time...omg it is so scary lar...on the way back hm...i was walking past the bus-stop...when suddenly a double deck bus driving towards me...tt it was moving at quite a high speed & it is heading towards me...& there is a guy, who seems to wan to take the bus block me...then at tt sudden moment...the bus mirror were heading towards my direction & in a split sec it was infront of my face then at tt moment i bend down & dodge the mirror...luckily the mirror didn't hit my face or else i would hav death...thx for my quick reaction...tsk,tsk,tsk...if it had hit me...i wouldn't be here le & at the 1st time...it is also a bus mirror & it almost hit me from my back & it misses me by a second...luckily at tt time i hav walked faster...omg this 2 incident hav make me quite afraid of bus mirror...omg i wouldn't dare to walked so close to a bus mirror le...haha...& i hereby warn all of ur out there...not to walked so near to a moving bus with mirror...LOL...!!!...gtg le...bb...Xp...

2008-07-15T23:07:00.004+08:00

ATTENTION !!!

I jus wanna apologise to Jeremy & all my frens out there...well i jus hav to say tt my attitude is worst then i expected...im so sorri to Jeremy...i noe tt u hav tolerate it for very long le...& thx u becos u hav been giving me lots of advice...maybe it is becos i hav given ur to much trouble le...SORRI...haizzz...i never noe tt i hav gone overbroad le...i jus dont noe wat gotten into me...tt make me feel so angry abt it...maybe it is becos of lots of things lar...dont wanna mention abt it...i hav thought abt it le...& i will face the problems tt i hav...i will never give up in no matter wat...i will perservere to the end...at the very basic...i hav to overcome it...the things tt i hav thoght abt it for very long...& sorri to the Ex-cos...tt i hav stressed ur to the max of ur limit & now i will hand all the stuffs to ur le & be only there to advise ur accordingly...so work hard & dont fail me...all the best...& to all my frens who give me support...thx all of u...i will never forgot ur le...i will rmb all the advise given to me...LOL...!!!...Xp...

Well i hav make up my mind le...i will be back de (for those who now wat i mean, ur will c the me again)......so smile on...Xp...

2008-07-15T22:45:00.006+08:00

Woah...when to religious class last Sun...haizzzz...very tired lor...attend the class fr morning 8.30am - evening 6.00pm...wow...!!!...but the time is spend worthwhile...learn quite a lots of things...well reached home quite late tt day...but when i reached home, i had this crazy idea to take a pic with my bro...& heres the pic...Xp... The Combined pic (above)...& for those who dunno his name...LOL...!!!...his name is Clive lar...haha...

Me alone (above)...

Me alone 2 (above)...

Well now is he alone (above & below)...

Well dont asked me...y...???...he is bald...becos he went for this charity event called Hair for Hope 2008...so he went to shave his hair lor...& the motto for this event is "Lose Your Hair,Light A Heart ! "...i feel so proud lar...tt my bro go join this event...well all the best to him also lar...cos he will be taking 'O' lvl...while i be taking 'N' lvl...so chiong ar...haha...kk gtg le...bb...Xp...

2008-07-13T22:04:00.003+08:00

MY REFLECTION

Aft talking to Miss mo & Jeremy...i felt tt i hav done too much tt im over-shadowing my choir president...haizzz...well maybe it is becos i hav overstep the boundaries of my authorities...maybe it is becos i shouldn't help them anymore (or else they will not learn anything)...maybe it is becos i hav rushed them too much le...maybe it is becos i stressed them too much le...maybe it is becos i jus made the wrong decision to take up the post...maybe here & there...X(...too much decisions tt i shouldn't hav made...sadded...X(X(X(...well i think i should jus concentrate on my studies & i shouldn't interfere on the chorale matters...i think i will jus hand down all the matters to the new Ex-cos (Yun Hong,Jia Jun,Anthony & Ying wei)...all along i thought tt Anthony is the one tt is covering up for Yun Hong...becos i jus felt tt he is doing too much...tt i feel tt he looked more lyk a president to me...well it jus turned out to be me...of all the ppls i never expect it to be me...i finally noe wat i hav done wrong...i hav jus cover up the potential of someone...& tt someone may shine if im not even here...haizzz...jus wanna apologize to everyone tt i hav stress too much on...especially to the Ex-cos...sorri tt i hav make ur rushed out the work...sorri tt i stressed ur too much le...maybe until i get back to the old me (The Advisor) i will not step in to anything le...i will jus c & hope tt ur could handed all the chorale matters with the proper & right decisions...so smile on...

Actually for the past week...i dont feel very gd le...haizzz...1st is the bubble tea at 528...i still dont feel so gd abt it...next is the fall at 529...i also dont noe y...???...i jus slipped & fell toward the ground...luckily i hav no injury...next is the fever aft the Youth Day...& im still having a terrible headache now...X(X(X(...hope tt i can recovered faster...Xp...smile...

2008-07-10T22:11:00.036+08:00

Well went out on Youth's Day...Woah...!!!…hav lots of fun with my frens (Anthony,Chong en,Jade & Ying wei)...but it is also a very tiring day for me...haizzz...but the day was spend worth while...so cool…hope could hav more of this outings…Xp

1st of all…I woke up quite early lor…even though i meet Chong en quite late lor…becos we nid more time to prepare…well nvm then…aft we meet…Chong en & Me took a 45mins ride on 161 to Woodlands...thx Chong en for being my personal MP3 player...he was singing the whole bus ride to Woodlands...so cool...LOL...!!!...Ying wei also hav a terrible time taking the MRT...fr (NEL) Boon Keng->Farrer Park->Little India->Dhoby Ghaut to (NSL) Somerset->Orchard->Newton->Novena->Toa Payoh->Braddell->Bishan->Ang Mo Kio->Yio Chu Kang->Khatib->Yishun->Sembawang->Admiratly->Woodlands...Anthony also took the MRT...but his route is shorter fr Ang Mo Kio -> Woodlands (LOL...!!!...i dont wanna type so long le lar...) then Chong en & me go meet Jade at her hse lor...i thought tt Anthony & Ying wei will be faster...but in the end we reached there 1st...aft meeting Jade...we went to causeway pt to meet the other two (Anthony & Ying wei)...well took some time to locate them...becos i thought Anthony will dress very "kiddy"(no offences)...haha but i was half right lor...& Ying wei (alway same de lar) dressed quite formal...

Aft meeting everybody we head down to Vivo...lol...the journey was very long lor...fr Woodlands->Dhoby Ghaut (14 stations apart) & fr Dhoby Ghaut->HarbourFront (4 stations apart)...when we reached Vivo...they asked me to keep Chong en busy 1st...so as to let them go find a cake shop to celebrate Chong en...haizzz...alway pushed the difficult jobs to me de lor...well wat could i say...then aft abt 15-30mins...they phone me to asked me to bring Chong en up to the restaurant (Secret Recipe)...at there we celebrated Chong en 13th birthday...Below is a pic taken aft we sang the birthday song while he is wishing...he looked so serious & yet so cute lor...HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHONG EN...Xp...
& below is the pic taken...when he is taking his time to enjoy the slice of cake...he looked so happy lar...well i jus wanna say tt...Chong en...even though u dont care abt ur birthday...we do...we r always ur frens...& dont forget us...

Waaa...below shows Anthony (SMY)...feeding Chong en the cake...well i also hav feed him lar...but i jus dont wan to showed ur...haha...but this pic showed the brotherhoods & frenship between them...

Here the pic (below)...abt Jade & Chong en smile so bright lor...LOL...!!!...i think the camera flash also cnt win them...haha...smile on...both of ur...there no such things as u hav no best frens in this world...ur always hav us to keep ur smiling...

& here the pic (below) tt i pushed Anthony to eat the cake...Oi the cake for Chong en de...ur dont eat it hor...or else we mus buy another one & celebrate again...

Here the 1st gr pic (below)...showing me again...pushing Anthony's head...actually i push his head becos to showed the effect we were falling lor...LOL...!!!...so lame lor...haha...Xp...

Here the 2nd pic (below) taken as a grp...Well here is our one & only chocolate tt brighten up the whole atmosphere everytime celebrating his birthday...

We also went to Haagen-Dazs to eat ice-cream...hav lots of fun at the cafe...& below shows the birthday boy drink his berrycool...actually he act as if he is drinking an alcoholic drink...haha..."dizzy"...

There the Brownie Explosion (below) brought by Anthony...well he looked very happy...becos ant lyk sweet stuffs...haha...

(below) Omg wat r ur doing...???...ur doing experiment...???...well no lar...they were pouring the syrup-chocolate down the brownie explosion...

This is the Flower Blossom (below)...tt we shared...well actually i didn't eat...becos it is too nice to be eaten...sorri to all...but it is realli too beautiful le...There is 2 Flower Blossom in the pic (below)...can u spot it...???...haha...happy looking...

Here is another pic (below) showing the closeness between Ying wei & Chong en...haha...so sweet lor...

Another pic (below) taken in a grp...everybody is praising the Flower Blossom...so cool lor...but Jade asked me to put down asap...becos she scare i drop the dish...haha...ltr all of us nid to pay again...LOL...!!!...Xp...

This pic (below) shows all the dish we ordered...Berrycool,Flower Blossom & Brownie Explosion (Fr left to right)...& Chong en looks very hungry le...lets dig in ba...

Actually we wan to sit outside de...becos the scenery on the outside looks very nice...but it is raining...so we hav no choice but to sit inside...but not bad lar...no natural breeze but got air-con...

Aft we left the shop...we were quarrelling over a receipt...LOL...!!!...i was quite pissed off lor...aft a few mins of "discussion"we moved on...suddenly looking through the glass door...we spotted the water fountain...we went towards the water fountain & start splashing water at each other...(below) the water fountain looks so cool...

This pic (below) shows the beauty of the water fountain...

Here is the pic (below) showing the water fountain conductor Chong en...he is conducting the water fountain to moved to the music...haha...Xp...

Omg...!!!...on tt day...there is a special performance by a stunt-man Anthony...he is trying to dashed between the water fountain...without getting wet...but he failed...he was soaked with water lor...

& here (below) is the combined performance by the stunt-man Anthony,Asst stunt-man Ying wei & the conductor Chong en...Chiong ar...

Now is the pic (below) abt the hoods ppl...haha...i looks so unnatural lor...haha...hoods rox...Xp...

(below) & now we hav the conductor again...performing for the hoods ppl...haha...he looks so professional lor...

Aft tt we left vivo...we also hav our gift presentation there...& all of them (Anthony,Chong en & Ying wei) was soaked with water...oi ur jus bathe finish...haha...& we took the MRT...fr HarbourFront->Outram Park...& fr Outram Park->Changi Airport (14 stations apart)...wow...such a long trip fr 1 end to another...& at one day...we hav been to all the MRT route (NEL),(NSL) & (EWL)...aft we reached Changi Airport...Jade is not feeling well...so we took a rest...luckily i got bring the medicated oil given to me in the NDP fun-pack...aft resting for some time...we moved on...& Jade spotted the place where she took photo with her frens de...& so we also took some pics (below) there...here shows the frenship of all of us...haha...Xp...well it looks kind of dark...is it gonna rain...???...Xp...

(below) Now it is better...i think the sun is up again...Xp...

(below) Now it seems lyk it is gonna rain again...but again the sun is still shining...Xp...

Well we travel through the airport...fr Terminal 1->Terminal 2->Terminal 3...LOL...!!!...so nice lar...(below) this shows Anthony hooking his arm over Ying wei at the air bus...???...

Aft walking for such a long time...we decided to eat dinner...so Chong en went to buy 2 plates of rice...one is rice with curry & another is the baked rice (below)...haha...even Jade say it is nice lor...

& here (below) shows Anthony's,Jade's & Ying wei's dinner...3 ppls sharing a box & a drink...they even marked which is their straw lor...haha...Xp...

Aft eating...we took a long bus ride to Woodlands...& at the bus we took out our gifts...& we opened it together...Thx Anthony & Ying wei for the gifts...(belows) this shows the gift tt Jade received...

& here (below) is the gifts tt Chong en & Jade received... so touched they even give me one...Thx a lots to all of u...

The pic (below) shows the photography skills of Anthony...well it is quite gd le lar...taken in the bus lor...

& here (below) is the brighter version lor...the handsigns of no.3...haha...XpAft we reached Woodlands...we bid gdbye to Jade & together (Anthony,Chong en & me) we took a cab back to Hougang...LOL...!!!...today we hav a long trip on a bus,cab & mrt lor...cnt thx ur enough for this day...k le tt all i hav to say...gtg le...cya soon...bb...Xp...

2008-07-10T21:36:00.002+08:00

Hello ppls...wow...!!!...on the 5th of July...Jeremy & i head down to watched the 1st NE show (Family Day)...Becos my jrs r performing as the combined choir...i hav tickets to go lor...haizzz...tt day was a very humid day...& all i can c r umbrellas...LOL...!!!...told jeremy le lor...dont come in so early & he told me tt we can choose seats de...so mus go in early to "book" the seats...Xp...the whole show was very gd lor...i was totally amazed by the soloist,different dance grps & each & every performers...together with the marching contingents...

well so sorri tt i cnt upload the pics for the NE show...becos i hav a total of around 500 ++ pics taken on the day...credits to Miss mo,Jeremy & myself together with Anthony's camera...haha...so many pics lar...we took the photos lyk drinking water...Xp...

i will upload some of the pics when im free...& i also received a fun pack...so cool lor...inside got lots of stuffs...& inside the fun pack there is a very interesting item...medicated oil...!!!...haha...so funny...& there r ppls using it lor...so cya...bb...smile...Xp...

2008-07-03T23:10:00.004+08:00

Hello...!!!...so longgg...never post le...so hows life...???...lol...haizzz...preparing hard towards 'N' lvl lor...Xp...

Well went to Hougang Mall today...had dinner with Miss mo, Jeremy, Ying wei, Anthony & Chong en...lol...very full lor & we played some game at the food court lor...so cool & i didn't expect we could find seats at such time...lol...Anthony very heng becos today is Chong en kenna gravy & not him...Xp...

Well hav being going to 529 to hav lunch-dinner...& here r some pics tt i hav...

Here r prata tt Ying wei & me shared de...lol...is lyk i eat half-way then i suddenly shouted...& i told them i haven toke a pic yet...haha...lol...Xp...

Well here is my carrot cake...it is quite nice...so delicious lor...

LOL...!!!...here is Chong en...eating his noodles...& his is still able to finish 2 can of drinks...haizzz...but at the end...he didn't finish his noodles lor...haha...

Lastly this is the shuai ge...with his fried rice...lol...actually i only wanted to take the rice...but in the end...i jus took his with the rice lor...haha...looks so delicious...

Well dont even noe wat happened to Chong en tt day...he was eating very little tt day & i was lyk eating a lot lor...& i mean a lot lor...Xp...well smile on & take care...!!!...!!!...!!!...Xp...

2008-06-29T13:41:00.003+08:00

Well hav breakfast-lunch with my jrs (Brandon, Gabriel & Ying wei) ytd...actually i only called Yw to join me becos i wanna take a look at his minutes...but i dont noe y G & B so early reached...haha...mayb they can talked to each other through their minds...lol...Xp...then we went to 529 again...!!!...i think i hav been going to 529 so often...tt i think even if i close my eyes...i could even reached there...haha...went to i order some foods to eat...then Yw & G went to buy bubble teas...& soon i went to buy too...then i saw Yw's bubble tea got pearl de...then i asked him..."u not scared ???"...then i also asked him "u wanna per (fly)"...then he reply me "yes i wanna per" becos we had this funny joke of "jia pearl a per (eat pearl then u could fly)"...then i added "to heaven" becos "jia pearl a per to heaven"...haha...then ltr did we found out tt the pearl is still the same...X(...lol...

Above is the pic of the bubble teas (My [Strawberry milk-tea], Yw [Mango milk-tea...???...])...i not quite sure abt Yw de...haha...then i hav a very bad feeling abt finishing the bubble-tea with pearl...lol...i cnt believe it...i actually finish it...i feel very poison now...Arrr...lol...i should hav thought twice before asking the pearl...omg...X(X(X(...haizzz...hope i recovered fast...Xp...

2008-06-25T21:48:00.009+08:00

Hello every1...so sorri...X(...never post ytd...becos i was busy with lots of stuffs...therefore iwill post abt ytd lor...lol...X)...

Hurray...!!!...all the Tiggatiggers hav oficially received their chocolate le...well thx Eugene & Jeremy...becos Eugene buy the chocolate le & Jeremy delivered lor...therefore this makes Jeremy a delivery-boy...???...haha...jk nia...well Daren & i choose the blue-coloured box de (hazelnuts)...thus Jeremy & Anthony hav no choice...but to take the brown coloured box de (Almonds)...lol...somemore Jeremy bring the chocolate to Anthony...but at the end it melted...becos it has been kept at Jeremy's bag for lyk hours...???...lol...well Anthony also cnt eat also...becos he is still quite sick now...haha...wait till he recovered...then eat lor...haha...anyways a very big thxs to Eugene for the chocolates...Xp...

Well aft choir prac...hav dinner with Miss mo, Jeremy, Daren, Anthony & Ying wei...well talk quite a lots on choir stuffs...lol...i thought...while eating...we shouldn't talk...becos it is bad for health...haha...Xp...lol...nvm lar...jk nia...oh...while they were eating...Ying wei & i went to 7 -eleven to buy SLURPEE...then i brought a giant de then Ying wei brought a big one...lol...then Ying wei asked me...y he didn't get a Tattoo...lol...haha...becos i brought a cup bigger then his de...Xp...lol...nth to blog abt it le lar...then i also gtg le...bb...Xp...

2008-06-23T16:29:00.002+08:00

Hooray...!!!...Term 3 is here...& all of us hav to returned back to sch le...haizzz...no more freedom le (wake up late,no homework,go out the whole day & hav lots of fun)...haha...oh...jus thought of smth...yesterday Jeremy had a fall...all my fault...ok...???...sorri lar...he falled becos he was talking to me & i was lyk dao-ing him...well it is also very fun lar...Xp...but sorri,sorri & sorri...X)...

Wake up quite early today...becos today is the 1st day of sch aft June holiday...but i hav no problem in waking up early...becos i hav being going to sch for the whole of June holiday...haha...well saw Anthony near the stairs lor...waaa...so scary...i think he hav not recovered from his illness...he looked so pale lor...i also saw Ying wei, he was standing outside a classrm lor...cool sia...he go cut his hair...but...it is also very funny lar...lol...i also saw Chong en...he was changing...???...aft his PE lesson...???...well today we all r dismissed at 1.30pm de...but my teacher was to hav A.math lesson aft 1.30pm...well at 1st i was lyk so sian lor...becos everybody will be dismiss at 1.30 & i hav to continue to attend lessons lor...but ltr when the lesson begin...i felt tt i hav not waste the time i spend in the lesson...cos today lesson was the 3rd A.math (if im not wrong)...i truly noe wat is going on...lol...so nice to noe wat going on...becos my A.math basic seems very off lor...but nvm i will get everything clear asap de...gtg le...bb...

2008-06-22T13:02:00.005+08:00

Omg...another record of me not blogging for 7 days...haizzz...actually quite busy lately lor...well for this whole June holiday, i hav been going back to sch...& being going to Blk 529 to eat...for remedial, choir prac & even NDP rehearsal...but i dont hav to worry so much le...my jrs r handling all choir matters smoothly...hope they can continue to work hard...Xp...

15th June - had the BXB presentation...lol...so cool lor...but i hav alreadi expect tt all grps will at least win some prizes...well all of us got a pen...so nice lor...thx to all JDYs & coordinators tt organise this activity...& ya my grp presentation is being seperate into 2 segments...1st is a role-play thingy...where all our acting skills r being put to a test...2nd is jus a normal PP presentation...well it took quite a long time for all 4 grps to complete their presentation lor...today Anthony & Ying wei together with Chu rui went to do the banner...heard tt they hav lots of fun while doing the banner lor...haizzz...nth to blog abt le lar...so i will moved on to 16th June...

16th June to 21th June - went back to sch also lor...16,18,20 & 21 of June is NDP rehearsal...while 17 & 19 of June is Choir prac...on the 18th of June...i wake up so early lor...becos i nid to pass smth to Jade...so i head str down to Woodlands at around 9++ or 10++...???...then it took me 45 mins to reach there lor...lol...i reach there too early liao lar...then i went to the food court to wait lor...then got this aunty keep on looking at me lor...so weird lor...aft sitting there for so long, i decided to head down to her hse lor...when i reach her hse...i continue to wait for an hour lor...nvm lar...i did expect to wait de lor...haizzz...aft i meet up with her...we went to buy bubble teas...while buying bubble teas...she looked at me lar...lyk i owe her smth lyk tt...orh...then i noe le...she want me to hold the banner for her...lol...then some more she go walked the whole shopping mall lor...then i hav to hold the banner for the whole long journey lor...then aft tt she go to sch le & i also go back hm le...well actually i thought of opening up or even put it down de lor...but i think better not lar...haizzz...aft tt i went back to sch to look for my jrs...cos they will be heading down to the floating platform to make sure tt they r able to moved in & out of it smoothly...luckily im able to reach in time to say bye to them lor...& aft tt i went hm le...well it is quite lonely lar for tt few hours...cos all of them hav gone to the floating platform & im at hm...X(...i think they all r knock out once they reached hm...haha...well on both 17 & 19 June...my jrs learn some new song lor...& i quite like the One Voice One Song...lol...& i keep on singing lor...well maybe i hav not being doing chorale singing for quite some time le...haha...Xp...On the 20th June...smth big happened lor...well my jrs ("dancers") will be learning the other dance steps...but actually i was not dao-ing her lor...actually i feel very sick on the day...so i look lyk i was quite angry lor...haha...dont wanna say so much abt it le...then on the 21th of June...my jrs will be heading down to the platform again...dont noe wat they go there for...well nvm...they all was again knock out...haha...X)...& i was lyk packing my room lor...cos hav a minor renovation...so cool lor...hav a few arrangements here & there...& i also get to noe a few new frens from other schs at this June holiday...well all the best to all...X(...haha...lol...keep on smiling...well for today i went to hav breakfast with my family...wow...it was a very heavy breakfast lor...haizzz...dont feel quite right today...feel quite sick now...!!!...X(...

2008-06-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

9th June to 11th June - went back to sch as per normal...becos of NDP & choir prac lor...lol...i seems very busy...???...haizzz...but aft 11th June...Ms mo (...???...) went for holiday le...so Ms khng take over lor...well i mus also help out also...quite tired sia...

12th June - well hav choir prac again...!!!...argh...!!!...so i return to sch again...haizzz...si ma yi lar...think he very big lor...lol...i was lyk so angry all becos of him lar...i think it is becos of some stuffs tt i shouted at him...Argh...!!!...dont wish to talk abt it le lar...

13th June - i went back to sch again...!!!...hav a lots of fun tt day lor..."playing" hide-&-seek with David lor...haizzz...he jus refused to cooperated lor...i dont even noe wat he is think also...hope tt he will be able to perform the steps well...all the best to all of them...then aft the NDP rehearsal...my jrs hav others training prepared by their frens lor...well...i noe i seems very dao & fierce lor...well i apologise lor...haizzz...dont noe why i give such an attitude to them lor...sorri...X(...

14th June - well today was different...haha...never went back to sch...so early in the morning we (me, Anthony, Chong en, Han inn & Ying wei) went to Pasir Ris to perfect my jrs dance steps lor...haizzz...Anthony woke up late, so he meet us at abt 10.30am...???...orbi told him to slp early le...but he jus dont listen lor...then Han inn got smth to attend too...so he also meet us late...well nvm lar...i can understand de lar...then at around 12.30pm...we reach Pasir Ris...but on the way...we brought bubble teas & curry puffs lor...lol...make me walked such long distance & sit the bus for so long also...haizzz...then at Pasir Ris...we also walked quite a distance lor...some more under the hot sun...aft tt we went to a Shopping Mall...???...& brought some more bubble teas lor...aft tt we went to a hall to prac the dance steps...aft practising for so long...we call it a day...so we left Pasir Ris at around 4.30pm lor...then we head down to another Shopping Mall to walk lor...haizzz...it has been a very tiring day lor...aft we went to the Shopping Mall...i head towards my Grand-Parents hse to celebrate Father's Day...wow...!!!...lots of good foods there...had a very delicious dinner...aft dinner i went down to the playground...omg...!!!...aft playing the playground i feel lyk vomitting lor...cos i went to play some spinning thingy...well hav the longest conference call today...had a very long chat with my frens also...Argh...!!!...im so angry lar...they talked abt smth tt drag me into the big picture lor...haizzz...now i think i very emo...haha...Xp...well tmr is a bright new day lor & everything will be start afresh...lets hope so...Xp...haha...

2008-06-08T22:05:00.002+08:00

6th June - Haizzz...went back to sch again with Jeremy lor...cos my jrs r having a NDP rehersal...they nid to buck up & train harder...well AGH was not there...as they had to head down for the interview...haha...tt left with Ying wei...when we opened LH, we arrange the chairs & tables & the space for each person lor...but at the end, they cnt dance within the space given (4 & 6 tiles)...well they mus improve on their awareness on the available space they r given to dance...hope they can do better at the next rehearsal...At around 2pm...Han inn reached LH & joined Ying wei on teaching them...then ltr almost at the end...Anthony also come back to helped lor...aft the rehearsal, we have a meeting (to plan for the camp)...

Well 7th June, nothing great happened lor...so i will not talk abt it...

Today...had BXB again...well today is split into 2 sections...1st part is activity, which is also split into 2 games...1st game is stepping of plates in a pool (a rain coat...???...)...then the 2nd games...is to balance a hu la hoop with ur index finger & lift it up & down...waaa...the 2nd activity very tiring lor...maybe next time...they could let us sit down & maybe even bring out a fan & some music will be gd...well aft the games...we moved on to the discussion for next sunday prensentation lor...well hope tt my grp will give in all their best lor...& maybe win smth...all the best to the other 3 grps too...they looks very "powerful" too...jus hope tt i could also complete the PP asap...well gtg le...bb...

2008-06-05T14:03:00.003+08:00

3rd June...well...went to sch for Eng lesson...not much too say...so i will not say anything abt it...sianzzz...most of my jrs (dancers) went to camp le...haha...all i hav to say is...all the best to them...hope when they come back fr camp...they dont forget their dance steps lor...or else...

4th June...went to sch again...becos my jrs r having a rehersal for NDP...lol...only 2 dancers (Han inn & Brandon) r there lor...as the other 3 dancers (Anthony, Gabriel & Ying wei) hav gone for camp...& Chong en went for holiday le...haizzz...hope they can perfect their steps asap...becos they still lack quite a lot of things...i think it is becos they hav a long break lor...heard tt Ying wei is going to lead everybody on Fri...haha...becos AGH (Anthony, Gabriel & Han inn) r going for a interview...& BC (Brandon & Chong en) r on holiday mode...lol...then tt left with Y (Ying wei aka...N2) lor...well wish him all the best...DC was there also...didn't expect him to learn the steps so fast lor...he did better than some of the members...well all i can say is tt he mood swing very fast lor...lol...then i hav to go bring him come back as im being ordered to do so...cos i think Ms mo (...???...) was to fierce to him le...???...well i was strolling in the rain with him lor...becos i think he feel scare or maybe he is very shy...at 1st he was very unwilling to do the dance steps...but ltr Ms mo (...???...) went to talk to him again lor...then he finally do the steps lor...well credits should go to Ms mo (...???...) & Anthony (aka...si ma yi)...haha...hope he can open up more & let others to help him...

Today went back to sch again lor...all becos of si ma yi (ur should noe who lar)...he forgot to take the props fr Ms mo (...???...) lor...then i phone him to ask him to ask Han inn to join me...then on the way to sch, i brought Bubble tea for the 3 of us lar...at 1st, we went back to sch becos we wanna take the props for tmr interview for AGH...then i wanted to inspect the props lor...well then i found out tt some of it is missing lor...haizzz...cnt do anything lor...then aft inspecting it...we went hm...then Ms mo (...???...) told me tt i mus thx her for excusing me fr NDP...then she also said tt i mus help her in admin work (counting the props) for an exchange...haha...lol...thank her lor...on the way to the bus-stop...i saw her again...but this time i wave at her & she wave back lor...well still quite guilty tt i fail to recognise her the last time...then aft awhile 74 arrived & Han inn boarded it lor...then i also went hm...well tt all...gtg le...bb...

2008-06-02T21:32:00.005+08:00

Well went to PTM today...if u do not noe wat PTM means...i will tell u...it is Parents-Teachers Meeting lor...haizzz...my grades dont look very pleasing to me...maybe it is becos i did not work hard for this MYE...or maybe im too lazy to study it...???...well i dont wished to talk abt it le lar...no point for me to stare at the results & cry right...???...wat i hav to do now is to study harder for EOY (N' lvl)...hope tt i will not regret it...tt i hav not done any better for N' lvl lor...

Well i thought abt it for very long le...maybe i should let go...maybe i will not bother her again...maybe im a burden to her...maybe she didn't even noe my existence...i think i should jus give up & not hold any hope or expectations for it...it is harder to give up then to hold on...i didn't expect tt it would be so hard...let hope tt TIME would heal the wounds...so many regrets & so many things tt i hav too do...how i hope tt i could turn back the time & do wat im suppose to do & not regrets all of this...but this is not possible at all...all i can do is to sit down there to regrets all tt hav happened...or to wait for it to be forgotten...???...well i might not get a ans right away or this might even be a mystery forever...let jus hope tt i will not regrets anymore & do things tt will benefit her...or maybe i will jus kept quiet as it may turn out to be even worse then before...so let jus hope tt this will soon passed......

2008-06-01T20:27:00.002+08:00

Well today i woke up quite early lor...cos got BXB mah...today BXB start quite late lor...cos the JDY were having their meeting & we jus sit around & wait lor...at around 9 ++am...???...haizzz...they played a game called who want to be a millionaire...then i was lyk "ok lor"...well i showed attitude this morning & im quite sorri for my action...then they asked some qns abt messaging short-cut & then they moved on to some bonus qns lor...at the very end, my team trashed team A by 100K lor...haizzz...dont wished to talked abt it le lar...cos i was quite angry also lor...X(...

Then they moved on...to the next part of today BXB activity...well they showed us a presentation tt they hav done & each grp hav to do their own presentation on the different topic tt they hav chosen lor...well im in-charge of my grp Powerpoint (PP)...well mus put in a lots of hard-work & i cnt fail the trust tt my grp hav given to me...lol...Xp...to complete PP for the presentation lor...

Jus hav a mini supper...1 bowl of green bean soup, a few biscuits & 2 mango-puddings (my fav)...actually anything with mango is my fav...well quite late le...so Gd Nite...Bye...Ciao...

2008-05-30T21:58:00.002+08:00

Well...went out today...with the Tiggatiggers lor...left home at 10.50am...actually i nid to meet Jeremy at 10.30am de lor...which mean tt im late...sorri jeremy...cos i make u miss ur fav show...haha...Xp...aft we met...we head str towards Hougang Mall...cos nid go there to collect something...well we didn't managed to collect lor...then we went to food court to hav my lunch...aft lunch we head down to somerset mrt...waiting to meet up with the others...

Actually meeting Anthony, Daren & Eugene at 2.20pm de lor...but ended up changing the time to 3.30pm...becos of Anthony lar (si mayi)...make all of us wait...as Daren & Eugene followed Anthony home...Anthony make them wait at bus-stop for 1/2hr...while waiting for them (Anthony, Daren & Eugene)...Jeremy & i went to 4 shopping centre to shop lor...all becos Anthony fault lor...Argh...!!!...dont talk abt it le lar...

Well...went to watch Narnia 2... Prince Caspian...wow...!!!...it is a very nice movie lor...will recommend all to watch it...in the whole movie...i love a very nice phrase..."5 mins more"...haha...the movie was very interesting & quite funny...but the ending was not wat i expected de lor...haizzz...well wat to do...all movie de ending is alway lyk this de lor...haha...lol...Xp...had a fun day today...gtg le...bye...